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To My Dad
No one understands the things in my head
I have an obsession with my biological father
I have always wanted his approval
I never get it
I look like him maybe thats why
Maybe when he looks at me
And I remind him
Of all the horrible things he has done to me
The mental and physical abuse
He still denies it all
Like it never happened
And the worst part is I know that
I will never be good enoughfor him
See he walked out when I was 8 years old
He said he couldn't handle being a parent
The most fucked up part is I thought he was coming back for me
So I packed a bag and was ready to go because I was daddy'slittle girl
But reality hit when I saw him grab his computer harddrive
The one thing he left behind that meant the most to him
See now I have a daughter
And the the cycle of abandonment
Hurt emotional and physical ends now
I will never do to my daughter what he and his new wife did to me
Finally I know the true man he is
He is a selfish personwho only cares about himself
He swears he is a "Born Again Christian"
A true God fearing person wouldn't hurt their children
They wouldn't abandon them
Time and time again
I'm done trying to fight for him to love me as I am
I know he never will
That is the saddest part of it all
Because I have so much love to give
He will never know it
He is blinded by his misery
I will not let him bring me down anymore
Sorry to say it but he has lost the one person
Who has loved him the most even through everything he has done to me
I still love him but it is time for me to move on
So dad I'm letting you go
You have lost your baby girl
You will never know your amazing granddaughter
You will never be apart of my life again
I am FINALLY DONE with YOU!!!!!!
