The Valentine

 

Have you ever had a dream? Not any ordinary dream, but a dream whilst you are wide awake. Your eyes are open yet staring at nothing. Before you is an endless expanse but, this is not a landscape nor is it something you can reach out and touch, it is time, stretching forever into the distance. The further you follow this path, the more you realise you will never truly reach the end. I’ve had this dream, and within it there are moments, fragments of time, and images of the simplest yet most complex emotions within me that I have yet to understand. I see an outline in this dream, one that I have yet been able to define. All I know is that its shape is something so beautiful that one can’t help but believe there is a God and if all of us were mistakes leading up to this, the creation that stands before me; it’s no wonder it took him so many tries.

 

Yet this dream is not one still moment, but several, various events that unfold before my very eyes. I see myself walking hand in hand with this perfect creature, past streams, through jungles, even climbing to the tops of the tallest mountains, yet even as I sit with her and watch as one by one each piece of a pyramid is stacked upon another. There is no sense of time, no feeling of opportunities passing by, no longing or need to be somewhere or do something. With this creature, if she had been Eve and I Adam, I would never feel lonely, the two of us, she and I, would be enough to fill this world, yet who is she? Where is she?

 

This is the question I’ve spent the majority of my conscious life asking. Other people spend their life searching for answers to questions such as, “why am I here, who made me?” Not me, I’ve never question that, because the reason I am here is for her and she for I. It is for us to meet, even for a moment, even for one instant in time. In this second I will understand what I have been chasing, why I have been trying so hard. She is my future, my studies, I do for her, my job, I work for her.

 

If I had to choose between saving the lives of billions or saving her life, even if to do so, she had to be without me; I would watch the world burn. For without her, I have no reason to be.

 

Right now at this very moment, I understand that these are possibly the most important words I have and will ever say in my life, yet as anomalous or out of character as they may seem, they speak straight from my soul. Never before have I written a letter like this, and I believe I never will again, so you will have to forgive me for its length and the way it exposes, so effectively, the core of my being.

 

I just want you to know one, most important thing, I sincerely believe, you are the girl of my dreams.

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