Unwilling,yet compelled

I don't go into any prayer
Just because there are pressing issues.
I don't go into fastings,
Just because I have issues needing that.
I have told God or whoever is there,
That I will no longer pray or fast
     for any matter,at that,
Seeing that,for so long,
I have been praying and fasting for issues,
Yet,having nothing to show forth for it all!

Yet one thing I have come to discover,
That a burden gets placed upon me,
And off,into prayer mode I get.
Yet another issue I have seen,
That I will wake up unappetited,
And the entire day be in that mode,
At times overspilling to the morrow,
Where it overflows to yet the other day,
And on all these moments burden ridden
     to pray,
And so I am made to pray and fast,too,
Despite my vow never so to do...!
And seeing nothing around me,I ask,
Holy Spirit,where do the prayers go to,
Though by night visions,
I may be made to see progresses
Or yet need to push on more,still.

And so,it is not because I want to pray
     that I do pray,
Nor is it that I go afasting,for the sake of it
But necessity being placed on me to so do

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