Cut, Broken, Scarred

Lost in a place unknown to me,

I can't feel my hands, my eyes can't see.

I try to be fine, I try to be well,

But this place that I'm in is nothing but Hell.

I can't find my way, my view is too clouded.

I try to slip through, but here it's too crowded.

One thing happens, I'm forced far away.

Another thing's done, he's gone astray.

I'm broken hearted, nothing is worse,

But a love of mine, dead in a hurse.

And it couldn't stop there, that happened, too.

A good friend of mine, his life is through.

Nothing feels right here, it's all a big mess.

I'm ready to die, please put me to rest.

One thing after another, it goes on and on.

I don't think it'll stop, untill I am gone.

All this pain I can't handle, it's just too hard.

My heart is cut open, broken and scarred.

What do I do now?  Now that I've broke?

Is pain the only thing that I provoke?

I need help, so I don't mourn forever.

I need love, but it's hard to endeavor.

You can't do anything, so don't even try.

I just want to go, I just want to die.

It's not fair, and it's just so wrong.

Every minute of the day feels so long.

Every part of my body has gone numb.

So much at once has striken me dumb.

I'll lay my head down, and hope never to wake,

Because all of this shit is too much to take.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

First, I move away from my friends.  Then, my boyfriend who I was in-love with breaks up with me.  Last, a good friend of mine passes away.  This is all within a time-spand of about ten days.

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