Completely Done -N- Over With

That is it!

My brain can not take being in overload any longer.

My heart can't take the suspense of your indecision.

I care too damn much to be put through this crap.

Life is hard... full of choices.

The one that I fear you will make is the one you can't take back.



A friend I will stay, but nothing more.

My love for you will remain, but no longer will it sustain captivity.

I've been screaming it at you, and yet you show no effect.

You say it, but do you really feel it?



I can't say that I don't care, because I do.

All I have to say is that I'm completely done.

This thing is over with.

I'm not doing it anymore.



A person can only take so much.

That amount is what I surpassed when I let my guard down for you.

I can't be who you want me to be.

I'm not playing a game of second best.

I'm not a back up in case your plans fall through.



What if she chooses you?

Then, you have a decision.

Let me make it for you... go for her.

I'm a fighter, but I know when I'm in a losing battle.



I refuse to compete for your affection.

I refuse to be on the side lines while you're where the action is.

I feel useless to you.

I feel helpless and unable to do anything but love you.



I've never bowed to anyone before.

Why you?

Don't ask because I don't know.

All I do know is that friendship is all I can offer you until I know for sure what you feel... until I know for sure that it's not completely over and done with.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I meant no offense with this poem. I just really have a lot on my mind about this person and questions that seem to have no answers. I apologize in advance if you get mad for this. However, under the circumstances, my heart must be hard... for it won't take another break. Friendship will be my only way out... unless this person proves to me otherwise. I've been hurt too many times because I was stupid. I opened up to this person in more ways than I can count, giving myself... my heart. It's too late to take it back... but it's not too late to guard it.

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