Skeptical emotion

i don't know where or how to start
all I care now is i really want to fart
kidding aside
i really want to be with you side by side
but i can legitimately feel I'm starting to be an a-hole
think i'm using you to fill a part of me to be again, a whole

i can also legitimately feel i'm being the guy jerk that i absolutely hated to be
you can now treat me your low priority
you told me once you have no time to fool around and play
that scared me cause I realize all i want to do for now is lay
if that's the case it's obviously I'm just wasting your time
preparing for a serious life I only got a handful of dime

i don't want you to go I want you to stay
but with this kind of person in me I'm pushing you away
hey don't get me wrong i completely value you
its just i don't know when i'll be ready to commit to you
i don't want to be your last lover that only made you hopeful to waste
so i'm telling you all of this now, before we exchange taste
i can't tell you if i want to be with your bestfriend
but i really hope in the future our friendship will not end
currently putting it to the next level will take some time
i don't want to act now impulsively and forever be a mime

i don't mean to hurt you, you thinking that would be silly
don't be sad when leaving me like you're watching free willy
lastly i want to tell you, you made me smile and happy feeling I badly needed on the first day you chat with me
the end of this stanza will rhyme with me i just want to tell you that i really appreciate you and thank you and just let that be
this is not a goodbye poem you're reading now
i just want you to think and reflect on what your next move would be, bow

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Someone made this poem for me.
I really don't know what to feel after reading this.

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