The Fallback Girl

I've a new name for myself -

it didn't come too soon,

But just recently I realized

The patterns of roles that I have

and the crossroads I'd stop into - willingly...

is this...

 

I am THE FALLBACK GIRL.

 

The one who is always there-

when no one would.

The one who'd always care

when the one who's supposed to care should.

The one who'd be fixing things and hearts

that others have broken -

But the one who more often than not,

turns invisible like a wallpaper-

When things are up and running

Again.

 

The things go unsaid -

with my family, friends, and at work

Not 'in-charge', but how it came to be?

I don't know...

Sudden changes, maybe.

Destiny?

Or self-imposed responsibility?

 

Catching those who are falling,

When you are stumbling, yourself.

Wiping other's tears,

While dealing with your own fears.

 

But I am happy.

For no other reason but by just being there.

Living. Laughing. Learning. Loving...

 

Sometimes it is a lonely world

being The Fallback Girl.

It's like you're there, but you're not.

It's like you're inside these people's lives

But you are just there for a while

as everyone passes through.

It's like you belong or own something...

but eventually, they aren't yours to keep.

 

I wish, I could.

 

xoxo,

The Fallback Girl.

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(c) angeljerlin

25/May/2012

Parkview Towers, Penang Island, Malaysia.

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