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I’LL NEVER BE HER
I’m not her,
And I’ll never be,
And I’m done wondering
What she’s got that you don’t see in me.
I’m not one to compete anymore,
If you want her, she’s yours.
I won’t stand here fighting
For a man halfway out the door.
She must be pretty perfect
For you to throw these years away,
But I won’t stick around
And wait another day.
I’m tired of the lies,
And the bullshit games you play,
You can save your explanations,
There’s nothing left to say.
I’ve learned to read your lies
By the expression on your face,
Every pause, every look,
Every story out of place.
You thought you had me fooled,
But this time I fooled you
I stopped asking questions
I already knew the answers to.
So go ahead and choose her,
I’m finally choosing me.
I won’t fight for somebody
Who makes me compete.
You screwed up one too many times,
Now you’re the one who’s gonna hurt.
You played your game too long,
And finally I learned my worth.
You can close that door behind you,
I’ve already closed mine too.
You pack your shit up,
I’ll pack mine too.
I’m not her,
And I’ll never be
Thank God I finally realized
I never needed to be.
How many times did you swear
There was nothing going on?
How many times did I feel it
While you told me I was wrong?
You got so good at hiding,
I got better at the truth,
You were busy playing games
While I was slowly losing you.
But somewhere in the wreckage,
I found somebody too
The woman I forgot about
While I was loving you.
She doesn’t need your answers,
She doesn’t need your proof,
She finally stopped believing
Every lie you called the truth.
I know that little change
In the expression on your face,
The way your eyes avoid mine
When your story starts to change.
You thought you had me fooled,
But baby, here’s the truth—
While you were busy hiding her,
I was getting over you.
So go ahead and choose her,
I’m finally choosing me.
I won’t fight for somebody
Who makes me compete.
You screwed up one too many times,
Now you’re the one who’s gonna hurt.
You played your game too long,
And finally I learned my worth.
You can close that door behind you,
I’ve already closed mine too.
You pack your shit up,
I’ll pack mine too.
I’m not her,
And I’ll never be
Thank God I finally realized
I never needed to be.
Don’t come looking for me
When the new wears off.
Don’t tell me you miss us
After everything you lost.
Don’t suddenly remember
All the years that got us here,
You had me right beside you
You just thought I’d always be here.
I used to be afraid
Of what I’d lose if I walked away,
Now I’m more afraid
Of losing myself if I stay.
So no
I won’t compete.
I won’t beg.
I won’t wait.
And I won’t hate her
For the choices that you made.
Go ahead and choose her,
Because I already chose me.
There’s nothing left between us
Worth begging you to see.
You screwed up one too many times,
But I’m not the one who’ll hurt.
You played your game too long,
Now I finally know my worth.
Close that door behind you,
I’ve already closed mine too.
You pack your shit up,
I’ll pack mine too.
I’m not her,
And I’ll never be—
And for the first time in forever,
That sounds damn good to me.
I’m not her.
I’ll never be.
You can have the life you wanted.
This one?
This one’s about me.
