god, is he really exist?

once i was a girl
who believed in god
because a friend told me
looking into the sky
saw that half part of it
is evil, and other part is holy
don't know what made me to believed that
maybe because a friend said that
or its just too far away for me to access that

i thought god exist
so everything will be alright
i believed that people never lied to me
because god will punished thee
but they kept lying
and i became a big fool

As soon as i knew that
there's no god
no heaven, no hell
the all sweetness of mine lost
cause i got that people will keep lying to me
and keep making fun of me

sometimes i do want to accept
that there is a god
maybe in our heart
or our tomodachi (friend) smile
maybe i'm too frighten to think
about the pain which i want to pass,
just want to let it flow with air
or just want it to go away

i believed in GOD when i was a child
perhaps i still believe in
but sometimes it felt like
i'm so mean that
i'm giving my pain to that unknown name ....

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