She is... A synonym for Happiness

I feel conflicted and addicted to something I cant touch
If you love it let it go you cannot rush.
Gambling on other peoples feelings is never a safe bet
too many people to many feeling to collect.
I feel a bit doubtful giving my circumstance
hoping for some type of sign in witch I can read
there is no enjoyment in falling
or the name would be slightly different
I am stuck in this second guessing head
in witch I think Ill never get the chance
to have the privilege of having the opportunity to plunge into affection
if she decides to stay be my guest
But I can only control my own hands
besides karma has not come to collect yet
so I really am lost on if it will come or be an emotional set back
I just impatiently wait for a call back
only if you knew how uncertain I am of myself
it comes out otherwise when in person
I feel I didn't take enough in the night we were close
even tho I couldn't sleep due to trying to record every second
of the secure feeling of comfort when I felt your touch
I learned to never take things for granted
for you have no control over anything outside your head
all I know Is I wish I could go back to the night you were lying in my bed
and repeat it a few times over again

so I can feel my heart skip a beat and a sigh of emotional relief
that I found a girl worth a few life times to keep close and understand
But life is uncertain and You cant predict the future
for the last few nights none of that mattered
just the present tense and the conversation with this other
I wish it would turn around into my favor
but sometimes life don't go the way you want it to go
I more than anything just hate the unknown
The ball is in her court and Ive never been in that situation
but its scary and Im not sure how it will end up
my head is clouded with thoughts
but I have dreams and wishes
Ill wish on stars and hope planets will align
but in reality no matter what Ill be doing just fine.

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