2004 / 2005

This confusion is bearing in on my mind

And it’s tearing out my heart

Why can’t you make a decision?

Before I rip myself apart

I find myself thinking about you all the time

About your hands across my back

I think about what “us” would feel like

About how all my feelings about you clash

It’s so hard to know you’re with your girlfriend

Although I knew about that before

I guess I lied to myself and naively thought

You don’t really care about her

Then I thought I'd realize you weren’t choosing me

And I’d get over you in a flash

But when I talk to you and I see that smile

It all comes flooding back

I got in so deep

Over my head

My friends tried to help me

But I listened to you instead.

I'm so confused now

About what to do

I want to say that this is what is best

I want to say I don’t care about you

But I can’t lie to myself

And cry anymore

I don’t want to be that type of girl

I can’t be the type of girl

Who has a taken guy,

As the centre of her world.

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