Unmutual Feelings

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Poems 2012

Asking this question is a challenge
I’m afraid that her heart is lusting for someone else
My faults cause me to lose focus and act irrational
But she sees hope in me to find love again
Even though my heart hates everything
It does not hate everyone
She is that one exception
The only person, who believes in me
Always cheering me on despite the odds

At the very end of everyday
I fall on my knees, sweeping saying, “I love you”
She smiles and tells me, “I love you more”
A secret pause freezes time and space in my world
In wonder and belief
Could she really mean that?
I’m in disbelief because I’m in love with her
It makes no sense that she grazes in my fantasy world,
in an ideal relationship (A perfect girlfriend)
But there is no way that she could love me the same way
Sad though because these are just unmutual feelings