End of a Life Chapter

Falling down a whole is easy.
climbing out is what takes effort and strength.
When you have nothing. It is often the best time to go all in.
Its time I break this. move is the first step.
before admitting you have a problem admit you need to leave.
be desperate. be dramatic. Its your life it was traumatic.
Pick up what is left and set sail. save and travel to a foreign land.

The lonely the road the more you become in touch with beauty,
walk it. admire it. take it in. get inspired by it.
most of all learn from it. You learn more without than with.
Be alone. Go alone. Journey alone. Tell stories. Tell memories.
strive and and overcome obsticals. break molds and barriers.
I have been absent for a long time.
I have been absent from my life for a year.
I have been absent from communication for close to two months.

I am joey drake. I have overcame a herion addiction and was homeless.
learn from me. dont be like me. We are not wastes of talent.
Our second guessing is what causes this mindset.
Follow your heart. Its often your first voice in your head.
The gut feelings and second guessing is what kills your ambition.
I was lost. so lost. I am on my way home.
It is a long journey back. I am planning the rest of my life one step at a time.
Spontaneous thoughts and desperate thoughts are often the same.
Follow them. Think things through. Don't just act before you get involved. Think first.
Attempt responsibility. and try to to build short term goals. Days ahead so you have things to look foreword too.

Life is ever changing. I thought it was linear and a straight line. I was wrong.
I tried to teach myself a lot by not experiencing a lot this year.
The only way too learn is through experience.
Practice decision making. and dissolve temptations.

I will never stop learning. I do believe I learned enough this year.

Exactly one year ago I was in the hospital from attempted suicide.
I had everything I needed to survive around me at that point.
It took me a whole year to realize this.
It is the most important thing I have learned ever in my life.
True friends will never fade away.
and I ran from mine. It is all I can to but to make it back and say I have learned all I needed to learn in hibernation.

This is the end of this chapter of my life. I am moving away today. It was necessary for one last post on here before I am gone for a while.
I will be back with more stories to tell. More to fill in on my current absence. But first I need to live more. Overcome more.
and most of all learn to make the right decisions. This is my journey I am sick of waiting for life and stability to hit me in the face.
I am going to back track to when I belive I last had it in my life and go from there. With my tools I have learned this year.
I will be unstoppable. Remarkable. Its starts today. Right now. This is joey drake and this is my story of overcoming.

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Please return a healthy Man

When you return Joey Drake, I hope you return with stories of great adventures, of running free, free from all the darkness that has followed you. Breathe JD, live JD, love being JD.