Yet [*/+/^] : 27.225 MHz, Some Final Measures; *Tell Me, O Thou Whom My Soul Loveth* [Young John's Lament]

[after Song Of Solomon 1:7]


You called me off the boats on Galilee,

and from my father's business, fishery.

I was the youngest son of Zebedee,

thirteen years old and far too awkwardly

shy:  and often the long cascades of my hair

drew from a passing thug crude mockery

that drove me, in my early adolescence,

into the dark fogs of teenaged despair----

more lingering than lake-mist's effervescence.

But, in the shelter of your company

I felt my spirit---even mine---bloom fully,

and thrive under the sunshine of Love's joy.

Now, evil men---possessed by spiritual strife;

gleeful tools of the Devil and of Death---

have been allowed, by You, Yourself, to bully

You into the profoundest agony;

subjecting Your flesh to gross mutilation

so horribly inflicted, so extreme,

that I could not suppress my soul's loud scream

(some said I was no man yet, just a boy---

even though I can claim, now, sixteen years;

yet could not quite conceal my anguished wails,

or hold back the profusion of hot tears).

The weight of suffering crushed Your last breath

from You as You sunk on that bloody cross,

suspended---and fixed there---by Roman nails.

I helped Joseph and Nicodemus put

Your body on the slab in that new tomb.

We closed the door upon You in that gloom

and chill.  Upon us all the most profound

and hard burden of unrelenting loss

perched now.  Y ou asked me to care for your mother,

but I did not want to live one more day

(nor spend the rest of this one, or another)

in this forsaken world where you were slain.

And, as I pondered this a little while,

I seemed to feel a sense of your wry smile

(the beauty of which no words can convey

and no books, few or many, can contain):

and of your whisper that this holy ground---

that Your living presence had made so sacred---

could not be, thence, defiled by their wild hatred:

and proof of that?  I stand here---still barefoot.


J-Called

[*/+/^]

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The last seven lines proceed from Exodus 3:5.


After I finished writing the poem, making sure all the rhymes synchronized and that the Biblical references cited were correct, I realize that one of the great theologically historical monographs I have ever read, Jim Bishop's masterful book, The Day Christ Died, also ends its account of Good Friday with a sign of hope . . . the return of the sunshine after the hours of darkness.  I presume that same sunlight also illuminated Saint John's barefoot steps as he departed the Joseph's Garden where the New Tomb was located.

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Truly remarkable: the idea

Truly remarkable: the idea itself and the deluge of transporting emotion that you so expertly evoked. It's miraculous on different levels, but the most profound is the connection I felt with the suffering Savior. And that called to mind the reasons for His unspeakable agony. It gripped my heart with paradoxical feelings of pain, gratitude and peace. 

 

On another level, the journey of the young Saint is brimming with a luminous, cinematic and inspiring quality that touched me deeply. We see him, in his winsome and precious youth, suddenly thrust into almost unbearable grief and horror. But inside the wirlwind of brutality, you paint, with serene and gorgeous artistry, a portrait of humility and unshakable devotion.

 

Truly, an achievement and a treasure. My deepest respect. 

 
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Thank you so much.  When I

Thank you so much.  When I first wanted to write Poetry, way back in 1975, I aspired to this kind of Poetry first, and then Love Poetry.  And I have been blessed to be able to post a few here on PostPoems, for which I am humbly grateful.  Your comment adds the zest that helps keep me going, despite the circumstances that surround me.  Thank you for your kindness.


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