It's not something you ask for

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There are somany things
in my life I wish I wasn't
And there are so many things
I wish I never knew
There are things that
no one can understand only you
Its a lonely place
left out in the cold alone
The only others who understand
fit a similar mould.
Psychics seers prohets revered in the bible
had messages from God in visions,
How do we know?
The whole truth likes hidden
in many missing books
some where it says
Do not seek to know the future...
They why is prophesy in the bible put?
I speak to God directly every day,
I can't claim anything good
of what I am in religion
Yet steadfast in my loving of Christ.
I suppose this is just
my other un willed temptation?
My lot in life?
It puts me on the wrong side othe fence
Always on defense...
What is the right situation?
I have researched all religions
and some accept my
Curse as reverent
and yet I won't change .
What is this hold on me that Christ has
that I can still be me entirely
Full of faults made this way
born not developed given to yet
I still honour the way of life?
Christ himself knew
what would happen next
As the cock crowed.
who calls the angels angels
and who calls the dead the dead?
Who is right and who is misled
Whose eyes are closed
and whose eyes are open?
We are all blind father,
Help us save us.

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I m drafting this, just my constant struggle... No fair but it's there.

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Struggle a word and a

Struggle a word and a definition most live by everyday .....No matter what the struggle may be ,Money , love, life , work , etc...GOD always has a plain and he only gives us what we can handle ..He has something in store for all of us we just may not see it yet ..Keep your head up Good things are on your way ....


you laugh at me because I am differant, I laugh at you because You are all the same ...(KoRn) J.D......

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Thanks sweet,

I know you are right, but I feel so hated and rejected by small minded people who fear what they don't know or have any directions for. I wish. I pray. I hope there will come a day when my religion will accept me. I never did feel comfortable in my own skin, but in my self i am strong. It's not some thing I do it's something that happens. HugSS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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And we can notcontrol what

And we can notcontrol what happens more than half of the time, except on our own acctions ... Rejection does not sit well , but remember the people that accept you and their acceptience out ways the rejection ..The small minded people have no room in your life , for you life is full of the open minded people that like you for you ... And you are loved by the people that matter the most ......


you laugh at me because I am differant, I laugh at you because You are all the same ...(KoRn) J.D......

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Agreed!

If the church fears me I will still attend but with omission. I dont like going there with the truth tucked away. But if they aren't ready, those who know, well it's not my problem, it theirs. I don't go to church for them. I couldnt careless. Church is in your heart, I like to hear the liturgy. I would like to point out to those who are thinking 'just stop it and repent' I don't do it, I don't control it. And I have done some good deeds with it, what does that mean? Is it Gods grace or not? I will know that when I meet my maker. I love the hope you bring FTT2b! Love chatting with you :)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."