Searching for...

Searching for you, your image I find,

Those memories at the back of my mind,

All of those times, so long ago,

Feelings and thoughts, melting like snow,

I watched them go, as I saw you leave,

For one moment, I started to believe,

Your love I recieved, and though it's still here,

What I wouldn't give to have your near,

That excellence sheer, that perfect sweet kiss,

The embrace of your arms that I constantly miss,

Now answer me this, will you return?

To my open arms that for you, yearn?

Will I ever learn?



Searching for God in a sea of fate,

It's been twenty years, is it too late?

I took too long in wait, to seek my true path,

Couldn't find the answers, couldn't do the math,

It seems daft, but I wanted so bad to understand,

Wanted the angels to lead me by the hand,

Through this land, in which I am lost and torn,

Another life wasted, in this child long since born,

And in the mourn, after sleep and prayers unsaid,

I'd search for the answers buried here in my head,

But they were dead, as I waited here unsure,

There was this existance, but was there much more?

No longer pure, but tainted as I seeked my religion,

God himself knows it's a hard decision,

I'm in division, over this hardship in my life,

Wanting to know about what was right,

I'll now fight, to seek answers from the blue skies,

I'll look to the heavens to find the answer that lies,

Let the angels be my guides.



Searching for me within this bleak place,

The tearstains still visible down this aching face,

I'll chase, every dream that existed to be,

In hopes that I'll find what is meant to be me,

I'll see, all those roads ahead in more light,

I won't be afraid, I'll let my soul take flight,

It's my plight, to understand what I am inside,

I'll carry on this journy, persist with this ride,

I won't hide, I'm willing to see this through,

More for myself than for any of you,

This is new, a realisation of which I have no doubt,

I'm willing to learn now, willing to work it out,

And I'll shout, from the mountains when myself I find,

I won't cut short the chapter, I won't close that blind,

I'll remind myself daily that I am unique,

I am special, my heart will once again speak,

I won't weep, I'll smile and hold my head high,

Once I find myself, I'll surely know why,

I try, and I'll succeed, and I'll find out more,

I'll keep on going, new things to explore,

New things to be searching for.

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