Drowning

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Self harm/Suicide

1/17/02



I watch myself

I'm drowning

Under the waters edge

I smile, for real

For once, just once

Showing some true emotion

I watch myself

I see it now

My soul's slipping away

And God it’s bliss

Just total bliss

For the first time in so long

I'm happy, I’m dying

This is what I was born for

I’m happy, I’m dying

From a feeling I adore

I can feel this pain inching,

Somewhere far away

I think maybe my body is trying to explode

My lungs are screaming

OXEGEN

My brain says it’s okay

You always were my Oxygen

I could use a bit today

My soul is etched is scars

It looks just like my arms

'Cause I’ve been lost

So long, I’m sure

I could have never known the way

Somewhere, in my mind

Life is death

And death is life

Don’t cry

Just understand

All I’ve got to say

I was living to die

You were dying to live

And there was nothing left

That the world could give

All the pills man ever made

Couldn’t fill the empty space inside my body

Were I think the feelings supposed to be

But I just can’t remember

What life’s supposed to feel like

Last time I remember

I was looking in your eyes

The only thing I can remember

Is the blueness of your eyes

Enough to muffle out their cries

As I say blissful goodbyes

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this directly before trying this.

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Danielle Blades's picture

oh tori!im so glad you didnt succeed.the world would be barren without you,im praying you never do this again.much love in christ to you danibelle

Ellie Mason's picture

this is amazing, once more im impressed with your work xx

Kiyoshi Barton's picture

This is really beautiful