My world is tumbling, Upsidedown,
Wrapped and covered, smeared and smothered.
Shining bright, Though torn with fright.
Blackness reigns, the shadow wanes,
Angels cry, the good things die.
Disturbed I lay, I die today.
The shadows overwhelming me,
My hatred leaves me thirsty.
I'm proud and I fall, stop taking it all!
I know I can't win, my life has grown thin.
I've been shown the light, but still I must fight.
I've driven it all, at the cross I fall,
I refuse to give in, I clutch to my sin.
I'm unhappy now, but still I won't bow,
I'm not on my own, I'm down to the bone.
If I reached for you, my pain would be through,
But I still refuse, your grace I won't use.
If you'll tell me why, I still want to die,
Then maybe I'll see, that you're right for me.
-Lo Ruhamah
I really enjoyed this. I can relate to it a lot.