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The world stopped turning
They always said it would not

or to get off if it did
So I jumped. I now listen to crickets
This is my world
They romance each other like string quartets
idiots without purpose

 

and I think..
How dare God call himself a man,
if he cannot kill the mistake he made
in me

 

I am a romantic cricket

and loving you was spectacular
like fireworks in Mendham before
everything went wrong
Do you remember that night?

We parked our asses on the sidewalk and

wished we were high and
I swear to hell that every explosion was
like a testament of my affinity for you

 

And my lips quivered over your

V neck tshirt and plaid shorts
both your nipples piercing through
I miss my teeth scraping over them..
I was going to marry you
that night
I knew it

 

But life ain't chess baby,
Someone really artistic told me that

 

I can't control you
or the love you don't have for me
or the god damned crickets every night just
vying to be heard
because the world had stopped, the day you
shut the screen door
and looked up at the kitchen window crying
shaking your head back and forth
I saw you

I lost you

 

and you just keep fucking other women
falling in love

with girls with names like Kristen
how ironic is that

she's everything you want

but you don't even know her

 

You are a gun in my mouth
and no one

is around to stop me

 

 

 

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SSmoothie's picture

The last 4 stanzas could

The last 4 stanzas could carry this they are so gutteral.and oh those last two lines are killer! (Excuse the pun) some magnificent stuff here! Never rue the love you gave for that is what makes you generous never rue the love you have lost for this makes you strong. ;) great piece! 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

hopelessly-candid's picture

wow this is very powerful....

wow this is very powerful.... i felt like i was there... almost stream of consiousness like.... i really enjoyed this piece... heart-wrenching... fantastic nonetheless! :)

life_used_to_be_lifelike's picture

Thank you so much. I don't

Thank you so much. I don't think you'd really want to be there though haha. It's sad because when it comes to heartbreak, words really can't do it justice. I keep trying but it's one of those things that can't really be put into the right words. 


"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.

hopelessly-candid's picture

ahh ya... I know what you

ahh ya... I know what you mean... besides the obvious terrible ache of loss... the feeling of trying to capture something so intense through words alone is beyond frustrating... it never does seem to measure up to the rawness of that genuine emotion... but I think you did an excellent job capturing it :)

life_used_to_be_lifelike's picture

I appreciate that. When you

I appreciate that. When you go through it, you feel so incredibly alone and you forget that others out there have gone through the same thing. i call it being in the violence of heartbreak. All I have to do is turn to a country radio station though and viola! I find that I am not alone after all. 


"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.

allets's picture

Well Composed

Very sad.