BEFORE

Before you laid in my hospital bed with me while I was dealing with my sickness.

Before you held me during the first miscarriage.

Before you put your heart on the line.

Before you actually gave a damn.

then after another miscarriage that you wanted you asked me to do emergency contraception.

you asked me to get rid of the pregnancy.

I left the state pregnant and miscarried a third time thniking it was all my fault.

 

Before you acted like you loved me and then I became just another woman who rearranged her life and moved over a thousand miles to be by your side.

Before I didint feel alone.

 

 Now I have someone who wont allow me to feel alone.

.He has become my before.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

thinking of my first love and heartaches we went through and him dumping me for a man and his ex wife while i was pregnant with his child. Knowing now 20 years later I forgive him but it still hurts.

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"Now I have someone who won't

"Now I have someone who won't allow me to feel alone.

He has become my before."

 

That is profoundly real and deeply moving. Love those lines!