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I have loved many loves in my life 

And sometimes

Have even been loved back

I have no pretty poetry for you

Only sweet tellings of better times

Which I suckle on like hard candy

To endure the bitter times

I do wonder, with some chagrin,

how are you doing these days?

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Visiting this poem, and the

Visiting this poem, and the conversation in the comment section that we shared (when you flattered me by your perception of similarities between us---you have no idea how flattering that was), and I cannot figure out why I have not been reading more of your poems more frequently.  I intend to correct that.


Starward

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The encouragement of your

The encouragement of your example may have helped me to a decision for change going forward.  I thank you.


Starward

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Even with the brevity of our

Even with the brevity of our interactions, I have sensed the comforting presence of one who is alike in you. My sincerest wishes of happiness to you.

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And I wish the same happiness

And I wish the same happiness to you.  Thank you for your kind words, and for the way they have made my day much better.


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This is profoundly

This is profoundly beautiful.  As for the name change, I have struggled (as an adopted child) with identity issues nearly all my life, and I applaud your decision to go with the name that best expresses yourself and your personal truth.  The great French novelist, Stendhal, used approximately 99 pseudonyms before settling on the appellation that most expresses him to us, Stendhal, and the Japanese artist Hokusai changed his name approimately 30 times.

When I was in middle and high school, where I was often bullied for being different, I heard my given name used as an insult, a cuss-word, and a byword for mockery.  No wonder I grew to hate it.  My First Beloved helped me to find the appellation, Starwatcher (in the summer after graduating from high school), which evolved to Starward eventually, and that was one of the most liberating experiences I have ever had.  That appellation helped me survive the transition to and experience of my freshman year at college, and continues to help me even now.  So I applaud your decision for the change, and do not let anyone discourage you from what is right for you.  I hope I have not intruded by sharing this.


Starward

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Intrusion?

Certainly not! I expect I'll find people with small minds who struggle with the concept of changing names to suit the truth: but not so you. 

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Unfortunately, small minds

Unfortunately, small minds may show up to belittle you---I have been criticized, by certain posters on postpoems, for the change of my screen name.  But, even when criticized, I have kept in mind the example of a nineteenth century French person, Amandine Aurore Lucille Dupin, La Baronne Dudevant who, under that name, was a member of the French petty, rural nobility, burdened by social expectations that completely repressed her personality.  But, when she adopted the name George Sand, she became the voice behind seventy books published under that name during her lifetime.  I began reading about her that same summer I escape my mundane name, and she helped to confirm the understanding of it for me.


Starward