This Is My Chance

I Quiver
And I Shake
Your Speeding Around The Edges
All I See Is Fog Rolling Over The Lake

Your Screaming
You Need To Calm Down
You Tell Me Your Excited
That You Cant Wait For The Sound

As You Tie The Chains Around My Ankles
Listening To Me Beg And Cry
Saying How I Deserve It
That If I Was Never Born I Wouldn't Be Forced To Die

As If It Was My Fault
Like I Wished For You To Be My Mom
But I Stopped Fighting
And Became Very Silent And Calm

I Realize This Is My Chance
This Is My Only Way Out
Finally The Beatings Will End
So Why Should I Pout?

I'm Going To A Better Place
With Candies And Rainbows
Where The Birds Sing
And The Flowers Go On For Rows

As She Throws Me To My Watery Grave
A Single Tear Rolls Down My Face
Scared For The Pain
But Hoping For The Better Place

Mixed Emotions Are Pouring Throughout My Veins
Happy For It To End
But Hurting So Badly
As My Body Finds That Last Message To Send

I Feel This One Tiny Bubble
Making It Way Up To My Heart
Saying Its All Over With
And Its Time My Spirit Shall Part

After The Struggle
Of Losing Air
God Reaches Down
Caressing My Hair

Reassuring The Worst Is Done
Handing Over My Wings
Soaring Away With Him
Freeing Me Of My Dreams

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sad And Depressed As Always. Thinking Of My Childhood, I Always Wished That God Would Rescue Me <3

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pixie_83's picture

Your pain is made beautiful

Your pain is made beautiful through your words and honesty.

I was also abused as a child. I can see my own truth in this poem.


I exist

Shellysweetness's picture

Thank You.

Thank You Very Much. I'm Sorry For What You Went Through No Child Deserves To Go Through That But It Makes Us Stronger Then The Rest.


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