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I'm trying to make things better,
but things only get worse.
The world is grinding at my sand paper sanity.
Demons have me on my knees begging for mercy.

I'm trying to make you smile,
but I only make you cry.
it never seems like the right time to say anything
because you're jumping down my throat
cutting off my oxygen supply.
When I thought it could get any worse, it did.
You can't even look me in the eyes
and tell me it wasn't what I did.
getting ambused from ever corner
assassins trying to kill me in ever which way possible.
One comes up behind me and kicks the back of my knees.
The other hitting me so hard i'm bleeding internally
but yet I don't care if they kill me...
because there are some things worse than death,
and death is so much better than feeling this numbness.
And what little I do feel isn't helping me get by.
Only God know i'm trying, but trying isn't enough.

I'm trying to make things better,
but things only get worse.
The world is grinding at my sand paper sanity.
Demons have me on my knees begging for mercy.

If these moments were snapshots
you'd see so many tears falling from my eyes.
But it never seems to be the right time to do anything anymore.
Problems are bleeding from these open wounds
that just don't seem to heal.
An ice cold heart is what you feel
and the whole time you're wondering
"Can this even be real?"
Because you don't know that face
when you look into the mirror.
That person that was once there
has now disappeared.
And you're trying to find the answer to every prayer
but only you know the answers will never be there.
You have to find a way out
but not sure how to go about.
you have thoughts running through your head
can't go with your plans.
So the only choice you've got
is to tough it out like a man.

I'm trying to make things better,
but they only get worse.
Trying to stuff the pain away
To try and hide the hurt.
But this world is grinding at my sand paper sanity
until it's absolutely nothing.
And these demons have me on my knees begging for mercy.

Hanging on by what now is a single strand of faith
it's gonna break, snap,
lash back in my face.
It's gonna mock me, try me,
break me to my basics.
Back to where I started from.
Back to where this started from!
Absolutely zero, working from the bottom up.
All of the progress i've made will be erased.
Cause in the end nothing matters,
not a single thing!
And i've tried to be happy on my own
but I just can't stand the thought of you being alone.
Cause I see that girl inside
Screaming out someone's name
And I can't find you to reply.

I tried to make things better
but i only made them worse.
I tried to stuff the pain away
so you didn't see the hurt.
The world can't grind on my sanity that doesn't exist anymore.
And these struggles never take a break on me.
Those demons have this little girl begging on her knees for mercy.

It's to the point of no return, no survival, no repentence.
I'm trying to tread this water.
But I can't think, I can't feel, I can't breath
I can't function properly, not without you.
I'm begging you, don't give up on me so easily.
You're giving me nothing, i've worked with less.
But this nothingness is from your heart, not your head.
You're pushing me away
and you don't even try.
As if I wasn't already carrying enough.

I tried to make things better
but I only made them worse
I tried to stuff the pain away
So I wouldn't make you hurt.
The world can't grind on my sanity that's not there anymore.
And you've got me on my knees begging for your mercy...