I can only watch
As my life slips away
My sainty crumbles
As my world turns upside down and my mind delirous
I can only cry
As my body shakes
My soul learns fear
As my protective walls are broken down into tiny rubble
I can only hide
As my addiction rises
My arms burn fire
As my copping mechanism sends shivers down my spine
I can only write
As my pain heals
My heart scars
As my my stuborn selfawareness wages war on my loathing
I can only hope
As time moves on
My feelings change
As my mind rebarries the dead and my soul the memories
I can only watch
You sound as if you are in about the same place as myself. Great write.
Blessings,
Lesa