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Forget-me-nots
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Family Forget-me-nots dotted her back yard
A spiritual connection to me
Does she have them in her new yard?
She is far more beautiful than she realizes
Far more intelligent than she gives herself credit for
One of the few I believed to be a true Christian
She held me when I cried
Was a mother to me one I had none to comfort me
She believed I was like a daughter to her
But she aborted me
In a very raw way
She got rid of me due to my differing spiritual beliefs
Her own children by birth though I love them deeply
She is raising them to be bigots
Josie at 2 years old asking people
The very first thing she is asking
“Do you believe in Jesus?”
Not “hi” - not “what is your name?”
Josie at 4 telling me
“Why are you talking to me if you don’t believe in Jesus?”
She considers this evidence of her preschool children’s salvations
What do preschoolers need salvation from?
She says this is her children being a witness for Christ
It is a witness in a way but it pushes people away
Showing judgment instead of love
She is kinder to her old students
Opens her arms and heart more often
She is beautiful
She is deep and amazing and painful
She broke my heart
The closest thing I had to a normal nuclear American family
Turned their backs
As I questioned my spirituality
It is ok to question to doubt to learn, research
I miss her on days like this
How can I reach her with a wall around her
A wall of religion
She is a very kind person deep inside
She taught me so many important things
She was my escape for many years
She used to have forget-me-nots
To remember me
I put forget-me-nots in my hair when I got married to remember her
She used to have forget-me-nots
Does she still have them?
Truly amazing.