Closure

Looking through old things.

Expecting to find a letter from you.

I sleep so deeply.

Hoping you'll be there in my dreams to let go.

Walking in this cold night.

Wish you'd be there to let me know.

Looking at old pictures.

Longing for your face to move and disappear.

Sittting by your grave.

Thinking you're right by my shoulder so I can say

Goodbye

Crying so desperately.

Screaming for you to appear and let me know.

Laying there motionless.

To find you there looking at me, smiling.

Right here on the beach.

Watch you swim ashore and be washed away to the sea.

Lying on this green grass.

Dying to have you lay here and say "I'm okay".

Here alone on this bed.

Hoping to find a rose on the pillow from you

and die gracefully.

Seeking an angel.

Wishing it's you to know you went the right way.

If I've fallen down,

pick me up one last time.

Turning the light on and off.

Thinking you'll turn it off for good.

Sleeping on this cold floor.

You reach for me and put me in the warm bed

and leave for another day.

Wishing you everyday and for

yesterday to come back.

At the same time,

wishing you and me well

and to begin our lives again.

I can't go on without you.

Not without your help.

Help me find the closure

I most desperately need.

So you can go on to

your path of the garden.

I am so heartless without

you here.

Don't know what life is anymore.

Can't bear to know of a problem

and have only your shadow there.

So please come back

one last time.

Let me know that you

are safe

and there's a life

for me and you

after this one.

Help me seek

my life, my heart.

For I know I gave it to you

and you took it with you.

Please bring it back.

I'll give it back

when it's my time.

Love me eternally.

For I know that

you and me

are worth the

hundreds of years

to pass.

Hope fades.

Memories can't run

my life.

The calling is now.

You were my heaven

and my garden for

me to grow.

Loneliness is difficult.

But not the wait.

Because I fall in

love with you everyday.

I wept for yesterday to come back.

I cried for your arms, your smile,

your kisses, your life.

Now I weep for a gift

you must give me.

Across the heavens,

ship to me

the gift that

will save me

from this loneliness.

The gift of closure.

Once I have it

for years and years,

come back to me

and carry me home.


Author's Notes/Comments: 

To my Mom and stepdad.  I know, so sad.

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*wipes tears * you have captured feelings from my heart in this beautiful write ... many times i have felt that way about someone i loved
oh you are so remarkably talented thank you for letting us read your words
hugs
~~lady~~