Looking through old things.
Expecting to find a letter from you.
I sleep so deeply.
Hoping you'll be there in my dreams to let go.
Walking in this cold night.
Wish you'd be there to let me know.
Looking at old pictures.
Longing for your face to move and disappear.
Sittting by your grave.
Thinking you're right by my shoulder so I can say
Goodbye
Crying so desperately.
Screaming for you to appear and let me know.
Laying there motionless.
To find you there looking at me, smiling.
Right here on the beach.
Watch you swim ashore and be washed away to the sea.
Lying on this green grass.
Dying to have you lay here and say "I'm okay".
Here alone on this bed.
Hoping to find a rose on the pillow from you
and die gracefully.
Seeking an angel.
Wishing it's you to know you went the right way.
If I've fallen down,
pick me up one last time.
Turning the light on and off.
Thinking you'll turn it off for good.
Sleeping on this cold floor.
You reach for me and put me in the warm bed
and leave for another day.
Wishing you everyday and for
yesterday to come back.
At the same time,
wishing you and me well
and to begin our lives again.
I can't go on without you.
Not without your help.
Help me find the closure
I most desperately need.
So you can go on to
your path of the garden.
I am so heartless without
you here.
Don't know what life is anymore.
Can't bear to know of a problem
and have only your shadow there.
So please come back
one last time.
Let me know that you
are safe
and there's a life
for me and you
after this one.
Help me seek
my life, my heart.
For I know I gave it to you
and you took it with you.
Please bring it back.
I'll give it back
when it's my time.
Love me eternally.
For I know that
you and me
are worth the
hundreds of years
to pass.
Hope fades.
Memories can't run
my life.
The calling is now.
You were my heaven
and my garden for
me to grow.
Loneliness is difficult.
But not the wait.
Because I fall in
love with you everyday.
I wept for yesterday to come back.
I cried for your arms, your smile,
your kisses, your life.
Now I weep for a gift
you must give me.
Across the heavens,
ship to me
the gift that
will save me
from this loneliness.
The gift of closure.
Once I have it
for years and years,
come back to me
and carry me home.
*wipes tears * you have captured feelings from my heart in this beautiful write ... many times i have felt that way about someone i loved
oh you are so remarkably talented thank you for letting us read your words
hugs
~~lady~~