It's all about the Why

Why am I lucky?
Why am I not?
Why all these questions?
Is there a plot?

Why do they love me?
What do they see?
Why don’t I see it?
See it in me.

Why am I lonely?
Feel so alone.
In a world full of houses,
where is my home?

What is my future?
Will it be as my past?
For how much longer,
will this emptiness last?

What should I take,
to see a return?
What must I lose,
in order to learn?

Why am I broken?
Can I be repaired?
What is the truth that,
of which I am scared?

What must I do?
Why am I weak?
Where is the cliff,
from which I must leap?

Why does it hurt?
I can't see the knife?
Why do I sit here,
hating my life?

Why so much anger,
at all who abide?
The anger is mine
It’s from me that I hide.

What purpose this torment,
I find myself in?
What did I do,
What was my sin?

Should I be happy,
Just as I am,
accept that the emptiness,
Is part of ‘gods’ plan?

Should I seek comfort,
and not ask the ‘why’?
Can I find all the answers
if its based on a lie?

How do you do it,
what do you know?
Is it for real, your life?
Or just a good show?

Will answers come?
They have not come before.
When will I hear,
A loud knock on the Door?

Why do I fear that
this is pretty much it?
And all that there is,
is here where I sit.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I added some grammer. Dont know if it correct though. 

 

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pudnsis1's picture

Rhyme

Great work with the rhyming in each verse. I will not reiterate the comments left by the poet that preceded me. I agree with her response. Thanks for sharing. Linda

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thank you

thank you

SSmoothie's picture

I guess the answer to your

I guess the answer to your poem is right there... "here where I sit" sitting still is very much the problem. reach out a finger and it might touch something new, reach out a hand and it might hold something new, reach out an arm and it might meet someone new, take a step out and you will be somewhere new, maybe better maybe not but different for sure and it is this difference we are ultimately searching for. a lovely and well written piece, I was missing the rhetorical question marks though! Cheers SS


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40andCounting's picture

i guess

Grammer was never my forte, I thought about trying to punctuate, but i knew I would f*ck it up, so left it as is, sorry but i think you got it.

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seriously. ;) I HAVE A NEW EVEN DEEPER RESPECT FOR YOU!!!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."