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Love is So [Confusing]
I've been mixing and matching but nothing's attaching
not shit's been happening and I know the problem that's scratching and clawing at the center of my heart's scarred surface
because I miss your face and I miss the way you said 'I love you'
and meant it everyday
and 'It's Been Awhile' since we kissed but I can still taste your lips
every time I hear our song I break down in fits of tears seeping everywhere
because I don't know if you still care
I just re-read your song and I pray that you're still there
so let me answer you once more I love you so much I can't handle myself
and when I envision my wedding I see only you and myself
and when I see myself happy, it's with you, no one else
Love is so confusing
Do you love me or are you using
Do you trust me with what I'm doing
And do you still need me, do you?
Forget 'Beautiful Girl' cause you know I'm sorry
I was a bitch but know every second I worry
that it's really fucking over and you couldn't care less
that your heart's taken better cover with someone else
I'm scared of being alone in this world without you to turn to
I'm terrified of facing my fears without you to run to
I'm so scared of heights, but I'd jump off the Brooklyn Bridge for you
the dark shatters my courage but I'd live in it a thousand years for you
but being alone is something I just can't do
I need you to be there to pull me through
to tell me that no matter what I still mean the world to you
I need reassurance of your feelings cause I'm lost without you
and almost all of my life completely revolves around you
Now I'm saying 'last time,' but you know that's not true
I'd do anything and I'm down on my knees for you
I'm begging you please hold me and love me again
my heart's crying it's tears, I'll love you till the end
no matter what you say here you've always been my best friend
and my feelings will never fade, tear, or bend
I still have Camile and at night she's close to my heart
she's like a therapist when I'm falling apart
she reminds me that I once meant life, death, and everything to you
and now I'm nervous to know if I still do
to know if I could ever have your love the way I used to
or if it's gone and thrown away like yesterday's news
it's killing me to hear: am I worthy of your compassion?
but like I said I'll always love you no matter what
and 'It's Been Awhile' since I said I'm sorry but it's you that's what I want
