Mind Games

My days are long

My nights are fleeting

Wish you could only see

What you do leaves me weeping

Confusion rules

And muddles my brain

I don't know how much more

I can take with control in reign.

Must my eyes be opened?

Must my heart be made to see?

What we tried so hard to work for

Is simply not meant to be.

No-one is ever listening

My cries always unheard

You just look at me

As if I am being absurd

I want to yell, scream and shout

When all I know is to

Sulk and pout.

I just want to be heard

But it seems I don't have a voice

Yes I am confused

But I don't have much choice.

Wish it was a little easier

But I guess it's meant to be hard

How can I get away from feeling so scarred?

I have been so very wrong

And I hate to cause you grief

But I guess we really are not suited

That is now my belief.

Please don't hate me

Don't let me make you sad

Our years together

Have not been all that bad.

You did the best you could

For someone never very grateful

And I am so sorry

If to you I seem to be hateful.

I look at you now

And it gives me pain

To see what I have done

But it isnt yours, it is my own shame.

I wish with all my heart

That I could have been truer to what you need,

But the fact is that

From the depths of my being;

I bleed.

I want to erase all the hurt from your eyes

But what's done, is done

And I havent anymore tries.

So, darlin' I will love you always

And hold you in a special place in my heart

But I cannot go on this way

Therefore we must be apart.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

sorry if this one is too depressing for anyone, it is the way I felt at one stage of my situation!

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