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Faith
On my knees bowing before my creator,
I ask why God is it you make me suffer inside my own head?
What did I do to deserve this?
I don't know how much longer I can fight these suicidal thoughts...
They break me down and strip me to my core,
Brought down to my knees once again I hold a blade to my arm,
And dream of how it would feel to open a vain,
Let all the life escape,
My last breath to say "sorry" to all those I've disappointed.
I couldn't keep listening to the voices and stay strong,
I hope you all understand I wanted to find happiness in a different place,
This world was never meant for me,
Too much suffering,
Too many broken hearts.
Wanting it all to end but being afraid of what's after this life,
I open my eyes and realize today isn't the day for all this.
Its time to get myself up off the floor,
Keep pushing forward.
Moving in what direction I'm not entirely sure,
Trusting that God will guide me down the right path,
And give me enough strenght to fight these inner demons until they are silent forever.
Keep moving when all feels lost and hopeless.
