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Refusing the cure
Refusing the cure
Denying the disease
Pushing all I ever wanted away
Causing my necessary fall
Having no outlet for the pain
Blind to all the sacrifices being made
Fighting for what I had hidden
Having only one move left to make
My world walked out the door
Leaving the demons free to roam
Working up the cowardice to exit
Sitting down to write my eulogy
Overcome with tears of self loathing
Once again walking away from the fight
Racing thoughts holding me hostage
Needing to escape
Researching an easy way out
Being saved moments away
“Are you okay”?
Unknowingly saving me once again
Needing to reply
Finally letting the words be torn from my soul
Crying as I released the pain
Allowing the blood-letting of my mind
Sleepless time of forgotten words
Passing from light into dark two times over
Releasing thoughts not knowing existed
Snapping into reality of time passing by
Feeling lighter than before
Scouting for the demon swarm
Smiling at my discovery
Screaming maniacally for no one to hear
Enveloped by a long awaited peaceful sleep
Dreaming of a smile
Knowing I would see again
Wanting to exist once more
Waking as light passed to dark again
Feeling as if I had won
Reading the jumble of thoughts
Expressions of someone I did not know
Identifying rock bottom
Welcoming my rise from its embrace
Gripping the fact the battle was won
Unconsciously knowing the war had just begun
Letting years of containment
Releasing pent up emotions once again
Knowing they would come back
Confident in the weapon she had given me to defend
A final sacrifice given to heal my pain
Leaving with no other choice
Unknowingly left behind a wound so deep
Forcing me to acknowledge the fight
Grabbing words gifted by my muse
Escaping a prison built around me
Hiding no more
Fighting the swarm for her
Never doubting a return
Working to cleanse my soul
Hoping she knows that spending eternity apart
Is like learning not to breathe
