Bad Girlfriend

I'm so bad at being good to you
I don't even know where to start
I've always kept my eyes open
But I never could open my heart

I'm so bad at keeping your interest
At least, that's how I always feel
And maybe it's just my imagination
But inside my head, it's so real

Shouldn't I want you to love me
Shouldn't I want you to need me more
But I just want you to discard me
I'm so scared that's all I can afford

I'm so bad at being good to you
I don't know why this is so hard
I can't seem to think before speaking sometimes
I always manage to let down my guard

I'm so afraid I'm going to hurt you
Or at least make you wish I was gone
There's nothing you can say, baby
To convince me everything I do isn't wrong

Author's Notes/Comments: 

definitely a work in progress haha, this is so not my style of poetry. i'd love any criticism or comments. thanks<3

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