I wish she would come over here
with a glint in her eye
and suggest
that we see one another outside of work
but then I know that will never happen!
Author's Notes/Comments:
If wishes were horses . . . How can (let's call her D) D be straight & married & yet sets my gay-dar off like plugging in christmas tree lights??!! I mean a strong signal It sucks! seems even purely sexual fantasies backfire on me I inevitably have sex and love interwoven in my mind and heart so if I even think too much about someone sexually I start wanting that person for real and wanting them to want more than sex with me. Man does it suck to be me cause nobody wants me, they never do I have just been unusually unlucky in the love and sex dept. most of my adult life, even though I was cute when I was young, course then I didn't know my ass from a hole in the ground . . . didn't know what I really wanted, was always chasing much older women who didn't want someone so young green and wet behind the ears; who would sooner or later dump me, even if the went out with me at first.
