She wanted to know
if I wanted to fuck her
and I said
“Yeah, I guess we could do that.”
so I can see where
we’re going from here
It’s gonna be a dirty evening
filled with dirty thoughts and deeds
and I’m not going
to have the good taste
to let it fade in passing
without throwing down a few words
I’ll always seem
to end up exactly
where I’m not supposed to be
It can prove
to be a problem
I look for
the easy out
but none is to be seen
in these parts
I have to “go there”
something inside me
impels me to do this
in spite of consequences
It’s impossible
but it remains to be
a major character flaw
perhaps I’ll one day
be able to work it all out
but Vegas odds
show overwhelmingly
most of the bets
are going against me
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