The Forever Friendship Ends

I don’t know if you’ll get this, I don’t know what to say.
I don’t know how to apologize.. it might come out the wrong way.
That’s a chance I’m willing to take in hopes you can forgive me.
I never meant for it to be like this but that’s what I can’t make you see.
You told me the wrongs so I could do the right.
I liked you looking out for me; you were sort of my “light.”
I was the one you least expected, forever I thought I would be…
Until I saw the hurt in your eyes, now you don’t want to forgive me.
I never thought of consequences, right now I’d rather die.
I meant to keep my promises, I never meant to lie.
I can’t tell you why it happened but right now it’s killing me.
I have to admit I deserve this, not I’m paying the fee:
The punishment of not being the best that I could be.
I just had to push my limits so now you’re hating me.
When I went to say sorry, I saw anger in your eyes
And left with only goodbye but knew I was going to cry.
I stepped foot out your door, the feelings just overwhelmed me…
I swallowed it back down wondering if it was meant to be.
I should have known: never will it be the same.
I never will be able to look at you without my eyes full o f shame.
You will look at me knowing I did the worst: I lied.
You will never trust me like before, but only I can say I tried.
Ten years we’ve been friends; I’ve gone and made that forever friendship end.
In shorter words I can easily say: I’m sorry, please forgive me,
Just don’t look back on the day; don’t look back on the moment when you felt you couldn’t rely
On one of your best friends ‘cause she didn’t mean to lie.
Don’t memorize that feeling, because it will never be again. She doesn’t ask much.
She just wants you to see her as a friend.
All of the sorry she could cry, all the words she could say,
All the songs she could sing: won’t make it go away.
Here are those “some days” when everything went wrong.
But she will always be here in the place friends belong.
2001

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