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The Cure
I hate life
I hate what you have to offer
I hate what you threw in my face
Everything is now shattered
Scars barely healing
I can't take this torture
I feel like taking that jump
that would end everything
And everything would be bliss
You threw hurt and baggage
You slapped me across the face
You told me things were going to get better
But I don't know what to believe anymore
I sit here crying in my room all alone
I have no where to go
Cuz all my friends hate me
My confidence is at zero
Dreams I thought would be
Lay broken and jagged at my feet
I can walk on the these broken dreams
Am I really worth anything?
I hate that I'm depressed
Cuz God your word says
That worry is a sin
and now guilt is imbedded
Woven, attatched to this soul
I'm having a hard time believing
You love me the way I am
I can't take this anymore
Pass me the bottle
Let the life after death take over
I want a new life
Take me out of this body
Let me live a life I really deserve
Because I am a nobody
I'm zero I am worthless
No one try and stop me
Because this life is not worth living
I just wished someone would hold me
Hold me close, I want to feel security
For once in this stupid life
Let me feel loved again
Because I'm being thrown around
Like a piece of paper in the wind
I know where everything will end
Cuz I've planned everything
So I'm begging one last time
Someone please hug me
Someone I'm SCREAMING SOMEONE HELP ME
because I'm at the end of my rope
and I am about to let go
Ready to go to the dead world below
And will anyone really care?
Will I meet people in this new world that will actually care?
At least they will pay attention to me
They'll at least acknowledge my existance
And from the rest of the world I'm in now
Everyone hates me, they're distant
So one last call before I end it all
One little slice is all it takes
So this is your last call, come on please take it
Take your time to let me know what you're thinking
Cuz at least it's something
One more time before I take this rusty blade
One last time before I breathe my last breath
Erasing this life away
One last time before I am with the worms in the ground
One last time, is anyone even going to be around?
To witness this mess I am in
To witness how I am feeling?
To view my gruesome, bloody, grizzly death?
Then I woke up realizing God saved me in the end
Dreaming of that world I was once in
He came and set me free
He came and had shown me life was worth living
Replacing my confidence
Showing me those blades of evil
Showing me the hate he had for such a deformed world
A world that believes we have to be a certain way
Just to be accepted, to be loved only in it's ways
He hates how satan plants the thoughts
He weeps when we feel worthless
He cries when we feel down
He cries each time we want to throw the towel in
He had shown me he cries each and everytime
We feel totally worthless and have zero confidence
He's the blessing in my life
The amazing life alterating moment I accepted his grace
The very moment I desired with all my heart to seek his face
He made himself known
He never gave up on me
He loved me, so faithfully he lifted me
And I'm just looking back on my past
Wondering how it came to pass
Wondering how I got through it all
I thank the Almighty Lord
Ruler of all
I thank him for making me feel like I am worth something
I thank him for the joy he brought to my life
Even when struggles are rampant in this life
Sometimes it feels like an inferno
But he's that one, that will never ever let you go
He will see you through it all
And just remember where you once were
