"Parental mistakes are indeed traits.."

Im lost in a body, a "me" with no worth. I remain feeling angry, GOD let you give birth. 
My mind is unquiet, though silent I stay... Ive  accepted a fact that will not go away. 
Though I've searched for the reasons, they're never quite clear.. under blackness of clouds that cant disappear.
I promised I'd not be the mother you were.. but the sickness you passed to me cant find a cure. 
Looking over my years, quickly passing with age, the hole in my heart, now replaced by my rage. 
GOD granted a gift, that now looks just like me.. a beautiful soul, somehow meant to be. 
Though mistakes I have made, that cannot be undone, it seems as if in your passing you've won. 
MY child somehow, given up on her life.. I'm now pleading with you, to rid me of strife.
I will take to my grave, the anquish I've bared, though no fault of my own, I'm not sure you cared.
For there is no blame, our cross we must bear.. unlike my own mother, I will "always" be there.
You see, I am human.. I have faults of my own, this life comes with punish, for what is reaped then is sewn.
I must rid all my anger, for it does me no good.. I'll continue my journey, from where you once stood.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

For those of us that were given up for adoption.. I'm thankful for being the "chosen" one, grateful for the people I now call my family. I've been blessed to have been "forwarded," however angry as hell for the genes given to me. Forgiving is half of our battle. Forgetting is just plain "not realistic."

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