Inner Demons

I lie here in bed

all thought of moving have been forsaken.

My soul is tired and I no longer care.

My shoulders ache from the burdens stacked upon them

the burdens I've forced myself to bear.

As the pain surges through me again

the darkness coils within and from it laughter resounds

in my mind it rebounds

from my lips it rings.

The laughter goes on and on

for the pain echoes all around

just as the sounds waves from a gong

and upon it with frenzy does the darkness pound.

Vainly I search for happiness

for joy

but nowhere within can it be found.

The agony rips through me

every nerve is set on fire.

My screams cannot pass my throat

in my soul they echo

in my mind they ring.

Everywhere within me

the darkness begins to dance and sing.

I can no longer feel my bed

or the clothes I wore.

The pain I felt inside me

and that which I felt outside have coalesced.

No longer can I tell up from down nor the air from the ground.

The red waves crash against me

and I am carried away.

The pain surrounds me

and everywhere is it found.

My soul is tired and I cannot begin to care

my shoulders are too tired to bear

the burdens of those for whom I care.

The darkness laughs in triumph

beneath the waves I begin to sink

the pain is too much

I cannot think.

Before the pain envelopes my mind

and strikes my eyes blind

your face appears before me.

I see your special smile that makes me weak

throughout does your laughter ring.

The darkness falters in the song he sings.

A smile touches my lips

tears fall from eyes that no longer see.

In my mind your laughter rings

in my soul louder does the darkness sing.

I release my hold

the waters swallow me and through the pain I fall.

I am thrown against the reef and upon it shatter

for this no longer matters.

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