~In Silence~

         Echoes linger, like one finger
            trailing down my arm,
          beckoning my heart to open,
        & receive Your voice, so warm,
       & still, the winter I retreat to
            never fully unthaws
  except when You break through the silence,
         taking my hope off 'pause'.  
            
         Why do I retreat from where
           my hunger knows its need
        can finally be fully satiated,
               without greed?
          Why do I struggle to rest
          in silence,  my pain cries
           knowing You're freeing me
                more daily,
          but yet, the lies, the lies!

        Not a song, more like a memory
           of one not forgotten
       sings itself into the dreams
     where ripening fruit's found rotten,
     Your promise to bring good from bad
          still nourishes my soul,
          & my resolve to overcome
         is, once more, in control.
                
       So begone, oh, hellevision,
     your offered escape, such chains!
       Stay quiet for awhile, music,
          so eager to entertain!
        I refuse to run from You,
     in the silence, You are there ~
~I'll learn to remain in Your presence, Lord,
     & allow You, my burdens, to bear ~
                *~*~*~*~*

                                    ~By Anastazia Rowe~

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this one night when I had just spent hours watching tv, & doing a million things, distracted by busyness, too much going on in the depths of my heart, not taking the time to cast my burdens on Him, seeing, as I finally went to bed, & tried to sleep, & finally had to turn on the light & write, that I was falling back into numbing out, not with the old things I used to use to escape my pain, before I knew Him, but with things that are not bad, in & of themselves, but I was allowing to comfort me with a false comfort that was only contributing to the problem...the next morning, I cut off the cable, & put away my music, & began to learn to listen to His still, small voice again...

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