overthinking

Eternity (day 72)

If only I could stop counting down minutes

maybe I could stay here long enough

to make a mark, pull you in to fall

 

If only I could hush inner hesitation

then I could breathe, blink, smile,

fall apart laughing, know you after all

 

But instead my twisted logic makes

every word an eternity,

every end a remedy,

every silence a stone,

every touch a broken bone

that glimmers in the darkness

 

Every mile a footstep,

every confession a regret,

every secret a surprise,

every color in your eyes

they meet mine and I’m hopeless

 

Insanity runs in my family, my veins

but somehow I got the worst of it

and I’m still learning how to human

 

Learning to behave with a lion’s tongue

caught in a harsh comedic act

where people love to pierce my skin

 

But instead my twisted logic makes

every word an eternity,

every end a remedy,

every silence a stone,

every touch a broken bone

that glimmers in the darkness

 

Every mile a footstep,

every confession a regret,

every secret a surprise,

every color in your eyes

they meet mine and I’m hopeless

 

Stop in my tracks, turn over my shoulder

I could lose my head and find the clarity

that carries all I’ll ever need

 

Remember the holes in everyday quilts

I could find my loss and lose my bruises

and know it’s okay to bleed

 

But instead my twisted logic makes

every word an eternity,

every end a remedy,

every silence a stone,

every touch a broken bone

that glimmers in the darkness

 

Every mile a footstep,

every confession a regret,

every secret a surprise,

every color in your eyes

they meet mine and I’m hopeless

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written 10/8/16

Eternity

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