Moving on from wasted time

Sanctum

These ups and downs don't mean a thing
I'll still continue to stare down these walls
locked in a contest until the end of time
where if one speaks, they break resolve
So hunt me down and blow me off
I stopped caring a long, long time ago

For what words can you say to stiffen me?
How you portray...that's the best you can be? (ha)
I've dealt the fool's card time and time again
But this war is no longer mine
and my guns are all bloody, soaked red with time

Cut my hair and knock me off that pedestal
Belay the crown atop my head
Am I not a knight in a queen's fashioned palace?
Or am I but a peasant seeking reprieve?
How, how could you do this to me?
Lend me your eyes and let me see what they see
Waters are rising in up to my knees
damn you confusion!
You'll only draw higher

I should have run at the drop of the first pin
but I waited unto anxiety
to hear your words, your broken pleas
But now...tis' naught but memory
My dear, you've grown old in your naivety
No one left to feed your spite
or drip your ego til' it bites
to sink its teeth into the flesh that bleeds until it finds the site
gorging tender pain and strife
and like a snake, let go its hold
until it finds another life

My darling, how cruel you've turned
your once sweet voice now flaked with hate
I beg you, look unto the sun
and dance within its rays
and discard those dark and dreary shadows
that have you locked within their daze
Could I but muster the energy
I'd hurl you forth to wondrous praise
but my hands are far too grazed
and I do not wish to drop you

So I'll play among the daffodils
and sing with wolves in clover fields
crane my neck up towards the sky
to let my voice be heard to heal
and sleep once more til' moon is nigh
like dusk to paint the evening pyre
Won't you come with me...and dance among its weary fire?

Light my candles and settle with me
as we sit in naked ecstasy
These primitive flames, they will not bite
For they are too innocent
and shelter no remorse to spite
Take my hands...and I will take you far away

But in the end, I know you won't
for you are too afraid
My heart was yours but tis' no more
I cannot grieve unto this day
My eyes are no more prey to tears
but at your feet, I duly laid
The lion in me roars my release
and calls my name to sanctum peace
Remember this day, my dear...for I am free

No longer caring
For now, for now I fight once more for me!
And you...you are just the memory

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ehhhh...this one was a spur of the moment kinda thing. We all go through bad relationships (at least the majority of us do) and when we finally realize that we can do better, we accept that, and move on. :)

Old Ancient Feelings

I remember you and your sweet voice,
The way you laughed, and your lively spirit,
Oh, how can I forget you?

You made me feel in ways I've never felt,
The way your smile reflected the stars at night,
Oh, you made my heart melt.

All those nights we would talk
Til the sun rose,
Oh, how you made me weak.

I thought the world of you,
I would roam the seven sea's,
Just to feel your touch.

There was nobody else
Who could make me
Feel so loved and free.

Well, that was then,
You turned sour and let me drown
In the rivers of black.

My life was over
I had died
And didn't want to come back to life.

I fell to deep,
It was a waste
And nothing but unspoken words, and a blinded heart.

But that was then,
Now that I've moved on,
You want to be in my world again.

When there is no one else,
You failed yourself,
Because I'll never fall again
Back into the internal grips of hell
I wish you well,
And now this day has come
I found closure, and now
Must you be gone with the wind.

Why is it when it's too late,
You bring up these old ancient feelings?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Poem speaks for itself.

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