#love #jealousy #sadness #used #unrequitted #emotionalfluffer

Pretty, pretty placeholder

I tried so hard to make it right

Pay for the sins of my lies

I ran miles just thinking of you

But here I am, without you

 

Must feel good to watch me fall

So amazing to see me crawl

Watch how hard I’ll fight for you

Just to keep me guessing like a fool

 

I’m just a pretty, pretty placeholder

Pick up the story where you left it

I’m just a beautiful distraction in your mind

And I’m living your nightmare while I cry

 

I see now you’ll never forgive me

I comprehend that you’ll never be with me

And those nikes I ran into the ground

Just reflect my shallow hell

 

I’m just a pretty, pretty stand in

A substitute till you pick up where you left off

I’m just a dedication to your boredom

 

Don’t mind that my heart is breaking

Don’t worry about my pain

Just press me between the pages of your story’s lie

I’ll keep living this fable until I die

 

It’s not me you’re longing for

It’s not my voice calling for more

I’m not the one you burn with need for

I’m only the seat warmer to you from the cold

 

And I’m paying the price for loving you

I’m counting the cost of this truth

The expense is so damn high

I might go bankrupt trying to bide time

 

I’m just a pretty, pretty placeholder

Pick up the story where you left it

I’m just a beautiful distraction in your mind

And I’m living your nightmare while you’re in heaven

 

And here you smile and I melt

These angry tears hiding so well

I let you play me as the fool

Just because of how much I love you

 

Just a placeholder

Just a substitute 

Just something you can hold onto

Just an easy A and an easy reprieve 

 

Well....fuck you because now I’m free


Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is very raw and will probably need some editing but it needed to come out. Thanks for reading :)

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