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Trust No One

Who can stand and

Fall for you today

Who can give their life

Away for someone

Who might even have

Not saved theirs?

 

Baptized

Baptized not by the sunrize

Baptized truly by the sunset

Baptized not by fire

But

Baptized by the dragon

With the icy flame

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Don't Try To Change Me

Change can be good

But now my eyes

Are open and I

Can see the real

Light 

A pentagon kiss

A triangle kiss

Softly 

Its been great

Theres no turning back

Commandments

Folder: 
The Oath (2018)

Why do you love

Yourself?

When nobody loves you

Why do you care?

When nobody cares fot

You

Somewhere, out there

They are cursing, but

Promising blessing

Like its something easy

To give and to

Take

Like its something great

To claim to be 

Right

When all there actually

Is take, take and

Take!

Black Church

Folder: 
The Oath (2018)

Pray standing and not

On your knees

Pray for their downfall

Or live to sacrifice 

Them as a downfall

Books are snakes

And water is smoke

Temple temple

A tower straight to

The skies

Temper temper

The church of light

Doesn't hold serpents

They are the serpents

Being held by the

Dim lights

Praying, then running to

Disobedience

 

One More Step

One step

You crazy foul

One step 

You crazy being

One step

You crazy person

Add all the steps up

One more time

Voices

Failure it's my middle name

Never going anywhere, 

Ha I've heard it before

Try something new

Fuck up

Oh wow how original! 

You think your the only one? 

The only one;

Whose ever made me feel, 

Feel this worthless? 

They've pushed me down. 

How many times?

Damn to many to recall now .

So please try something new,

Heard it all before.

Do I believe it? 

Sometimes... 

Do I wish I could take a rope 

Tie it round my neck

Jump 

1...2...3...4 

Silence? 

Darkness 

What's that light there? 

Is this real? 

Am I, free. 

Goodbye voices. 

Because of You

I look down at my body,

 

I see the scars I left,

 

I see the scars you left.

 

I see the cigarette burns

 

There on my fucking ankle

 

My siblings see those

 

My friends see those

 

My parents have seen them.

 

I wonder if they know that your part of them.

 

You said you loved me

 

When my friend put the trigger to his fucking brain,

 

You were there to heal me,

 

When my friend popped his last pill,

 

You were there to dry my eyes

When I told you of losing my virginity at 15,  by my best friend,

 

NOT BECUASE I FUCKING CHOSE TOO!

 

but because he forced me too.

 

You knew!!!

 

You knew the cuts on my body were from me!

 

You loved me

 

Then you fooled me

 

Then you fucked my brain up

 

Fucked my life up

 

I hurt myself because of you

 

You hurt me

 

Beat me black and blue

 

But what hurt the most

 

The scars on my fucking brain

 

On my heart

 

There still there! They will always be there!

 

At night when I scream in my bed for you to get your fucking hands off me

 

Then I cry for you?!

 

Wtf is wrong with me?

 

I see a gun,

 

I see pills,

 

I see my dead friends walking in my dreams

 

I see my monster touching me

 

Then I see you.

 

Your the fucking worst of them all.

 

You left me!

 

You broke me!

 

Now I don't know if I feel.

 

I just know I miss you,

 

But not the you now.

 

The you I miss is long gone he fucking killed himself or at least the drugs did.

 

This new you. 

 

He's the devil

 

He's you. 

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Battle Of Wounded Me

Speak loud the words they mumble negative,

It shows you have the life they want to live. 

Empathy passes quick these days,

Everyone leaves, no one stays. 

Shout in the ear of blinded eyes,

Tell them we won't lose this time. 

Born with peace, hate is learned,

No respect politicians earned.

 

In the sea of opinions, the kinder tides not always warm,

Critics circle you relentlessly, continuously swarm. 

A vulture leaves it's dinner alone when all that's left is bone,

But the cynics they don't care, they'll swallow your corpse whole.

 

Now if we stick to our guns,

We can win this fight. 

Do you want to get out alive?

Or lose this all tonight.

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