Tear

*Looking Into This Heart of Mine*

September.14.1998 
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins


Look into this heart of mine 
Look down deep and low 
And see if you can find 
How hard it is to show 

 

How it feels when your around 
Tell me what you feel...What you hear 
Explain the unexplained sound 
Could it be this falling tear

 

Look into this heart of mine 
When you came into my world one day 
See how my eyes opened and shined 
I was speechless and nothing to say 

 

Because the first time i laid my eyes on you 
I wanted you from the start 
I can see in your eyes your true 
Now i know i can give you my heart 

 

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Tears Drop At Fall

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People

There's Things We Want
And There's Things We Need
I Don't Know Why
I Don't Know
How Many Tears
You've Got To Cry


But Why Am I So Discouraged
Why Am I So Sad
These Tears Have Flooded
The Entire Side Walk
I Am Heavily Breathing


Why Do I Feel So Heartbroken
As The Lakes Ripple
In And Out Of My Heart Beat
As The Teardrops Fall
My Hands Are Shaking
My Eyes Are Watery


Why Am I Feeling The Way
That I'm Feeling Right Now
Lost On A Road Of Solitude
I Feel Emptied Up And Used
I Am Broken And Abused


The Storm Is Raging On
And I'm Pressing Against The Wind
Why Is The Pain
Straining All Of My Energy
And As I Muster The Leftover Energy
That Keeps Me Moving On


Maybe Someday We Will Rise Above

And When That Day Comes
I Will Be Bursting Out In Tears

My Heart Will Be Glad
That The Storm Is Over
The Sun Will Shine Again
The Rainbow Will Glitter
All Across The Sky
And I Will Feel Your Love
Reign All Over My Body
My Heart Will Feel At Peace


Only Then Will I Have Known
You Have Provided
Your Have Not Forsaken Me
You Have Not Left Me
Because I Knew You Were There
With Me The Whole Time

 

 

 

Radical Light

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People

When I See Your Eyes
I Feel At Peace
And When I'm Sitting Next To You
I'm Molded In Serenity


And When I'm Laying
Right Next To You
It's Like Laying On Flowers
A Very Soft Cushion


You Surround Me In Light
You Surround Me In Victory
Many Come To Judge You
But With Your Mercy
No Amount Of Hate
Can Overcome Your Love


Day And Night
When I Groan All Day
And The Heat Suppresses
My Strength Is Evaporated
Faster Than Water In A Desert


But Here You Come
Right Next To Me
All Of My Troubles Are Gone
All Of This Pain Subsides
And I Feel At Ease


You Protect Me
From All Of The Trouble
That Comes Hunting Me Down
You Heal Me
Of All The Pain
That Comes And Goes
To Leaves Bruises And Marks


For You Are
My Place Of Hiding
You Are My Sunshine
That Provides Me Victory


Many Sorrows
Come Knocking
From The Past
But Your Love
Lasts An Eternity

If You Need Love

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People

If You Need To Feel Loved
If You Need A Hug
I'm Here For You
Because I Care About You
And If You Fall Down
I'll Be There To Lift You Up
I'll Be That One
Who Will Prevent You
From Falling
To The Same Problems Twice
Because I'll Be That One
Who Wipes Yours Tears Away
Before The Flood Comes Pouring In
Before The Tsunami Comes Crashing In
And All I Need From You
Is For You To Trust Me
That I'll Be There For You
Because If I Make A Promise
I Intended To Keep It


I See The Scars You Try To Hide
And I See The Blood
That's Leaking Out
And I Want You To Know
That I Don't Care What Caused It
I Want To Be The One
Who Stops The Bleeding
The One Who Heals
That Fragile Broken Heart
Beating Inside
And Bent Out Of Shape
I Don't Care What Shape Its In
Because I'll Love Your Heart
In Whatever Way I Need To


If You Need Me To Hold You
I'm Right Here To Hold You
And If You Need
Warm Hugs And Kisses
I'm Willing To Give You
Warm Caring Hugs And Kisses
When Ever You Need Them
Where Ever You Feel Lost
I'll Be There
To Let You Know
You're Not Alone
And That You're Right
Where You Need To Be


Because All I Want
For You To Know
Is That I'll Be There For You
I'll Be That One Person You Need
That One Person Who Makes You
Look Forward To This Upcoming Day
And See That Beating Heart
Is Making A Smile Outwards


I'll Be That One
When You Have No One Else
I'll Be The Guy
When All Other Guys
Make You Cry
All The Others
Make You Tear Up
I'll Be The One
Who Makes You Cry
Out Of Happiness
The Ones Who Makes You Smile
The One Who Brightens Your Heart
And Makes All Of The Pain
Feel Lessened Out And Of No More


All I Desire
Is For You To Be Happy
And If I Have To Break
For You To Be Happy
I'm Willing To Give It All
I'm Willing
For You
Just To Smile
I Don't Want
To See You Crying
And I Don't Want You Hurting
So I'm Giving You My Hugs
My Heart
And My Unconditional Love
So You Never Have To Feel Alone
You Never Need To Feel Uncared For
Because I Am With You
I Am Right Here For You
I'm Here To Heal You

Broken Heart Revealing

 If Only I Had Trusted You
If Only I Had Called To You First
Would This Have Happened To Me
Would This Have Changed Anything
Or Would I Still Be Looking At This Chapter


Tell Me Where You Want Me
Tell Me Where Should I Go
Because If We Only
We Could Get Rid
Of All This Pain Inside
If Only We Could
Let Go Of The Past
And Could Just
Face The Truth In Ourselves
If We Only
We Could Get Over
The Tears We've Cried
Maybe We Could Move On
And Turn Over The Stone


Pretending I'm Stronger
Than Who I Really Am
But Who Am I To Blame
Who Am I Tricking
To Thinking I'm Someone
Who I'm Really Not
And I Remember
What I Told Myself
Be Yourself
Because You Don't
Need To Pretend Anymore
You Don't Need
To Pretend At All


I Threw All
Of My Past Away
And I've Forgotten That
Kept My Heart Beating
I've Forgotten The Pain
I've Triumphed Over
I'm Feeling So Far Away
Because Everything I've Faced
Everything I've Experienced
Why Do I Make Myself Forget The Past
When I Know There's Lessons
I've Learned
And Pain I've Fought


I Can't Take It Anymore
Please Don't Forget My Dear
I've Told You To Not Forget
What I've Have Learned
I've Said I Won't Forget
What I've Have Experienced
I've Made Clear
That I Won't Leave It Behind
I Won't Leave My Heart
Beating Broken In The Dust
Because You Need To Feel It Broken
In Order For You
To Feel It Wholesome And Alive
Beating Well And Kicking It Real

 

 

Reclaimed Hope

The Fear Now
Is That I'm Letting Go
The Fear Now
Is That I Don't Know
What I Am I
Running Away From
Seems Like I See
What I Don't Want To See

 

It Feels Like
I'm Not Striving
For What I Want To Be
Why Can't I Be
All That I Want To Believe
What I'm Striving For
And What I'm Fighting For
I Don't Think It's The Same
But Can I Believe Otherwise

 

I See The Fire That Resides Inside
But I'm Growing Slowly
And I'm Losing Faith Slowly
Will It Rush Faster
And Will It Quicken Later
Because I'm Slowly Losing My Patience
I Know I've Said I Wouldn't Let Go
I Know I've Said I Wouldn't Give In
But Hope Is Slipping Away
And I'm Sluggish To React Back

 

I'm Slow To React
And I'm Begging You
Please Hold Me Now
If Only We Could See
The Things We Hold In
If Only We Could Get Over
Our Own Sorrows
If We Only Could
Triumph Our Past
To All I've Ever Known
If We Could See
Beyond Our Own Eyes

 

But I'm Resistant To Give Up
This Night Has Just Begun
And I'm Glad
To Say That This
Is The Moment
That We Come Alive
Because Less Than A Second
We Were Made In His Image
We Were Born To Become Great

 

So Thats Why
I'm Going To Tell You
When The Hard Times Come
There's A Reason
And When You Can't See That Reason
Then You Know
You Need To Be Growing
And When You Still Dont Understand
You Know There's A Plan
A Plan You Can't See
A Plan You Couldn't
Have Made Up By Your Own
To Trust In The Lord
And Have Patience With Him
Because Your Time Isn't Up Yet
Your Chess Piece Hasn't Been Moved Yet
So Trust In Him
And Have Patience
Because It's Not Over Yet

Too Much And Not Enough

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Miracles

You Tell Me You Want Peace
And I Tell You I Want Serenity
You Say You're Too Dark Inside
And I Say I'm Too Light Inside
You Say You're Too Insecure
And I Say I'm Too Shy

 

You Say You're Not Beautiful Enough
And That Nobody Wants Your Insecure Heart
I'll Say That You're Perfect The Way You Are
And That I'll Accept Your Heart The Way It Is

 

You Say You're Locked Inside A World Of Darkness
That Everything You Touch
Disintegrates And Crumbles To Remains
And There's Nothing To Look Forward In Life
You Say There's Too Much Of Hate And Bitterness
No One Would Ever Have The Time Or Patience
To Show You The Love Or Peace
Tolerating The Bitterness And Grudge
You Hold Within Yourself

 

But I'll Give You My World And Show You
That I Have Nothing In My World
Nothing But Too Much Light Holding Up Inside
No Where To Expose Its Shining Brilliance
But Peace And Love Where No One Else
Can Experience It, See It, Hear It, Or Feel Its Light
No One Steps In And Feels Hate
No One Steps In And Feels Bitterness

 

But Please Excuse My Mind
Because I'm Not Thinking Clearly
I Don't Want To Smother You With Indifference
I Just Want To Show You That There's A Way
There's A Way Out Of That Darkness
And That You Will Be Accepted
Just The Way You Are

 

There's No Need To Change Your Attitude
No Need To Change Your Choice Of Words
You Don't Have To Change What You Wear
Just Come As You Are
And I Will Accept You
I Will Accept Your Heart
Just The Way It Is

 

I Will Accept You
As A Whole Person
Not Some Monster Of This World
Not Some Creature In The Darkness
But A Insecure Lost Soul
Thirsting And Yearning
For Affectionate Love

Weigh The Gain

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People


Let Me Be Set Free
Of A Broken Heart
Let Me Feel This Breeze
Lightly Smoothed On Your Skin


Instead Of Having Of These Mirrors
I Wish You Could Look
At All Of Your Successes
Instead Of Looking
At All Of Your Faults And Insecurities
If We Could Switch Our Perspective
Maybe Just This One Time


Sometimes I Just Want To Hope
Sometimes I Just Want
It To Be Left Just The Way It Is
But I Don't Know If Its The Way
If Its Meant To Be
If Its Suppose To Be This Way
Or Maybe I'm Just Trying To Be Right
A Means Of Being Right
Feels Wrong At So Many Levels


Trying To Prove What Isn't Specific
What's So Not Precise Or Exact
I'm Not Trying To Make You Perfect
I'm Just Trying To Give You A Future
A Pure Sense Of Justice
To Give You Hope For Freedom

Emotional Hearts Crying Together

 

Precious Baby Girl
Why Are You Crying All By Yourself
It Tears Up My Eyes And My Heart
To See Beautiful Lady Breaking Down
I Can't Stand To See A Beauty With A Frown

 

Here I Come I'll Say
But I Won't Just Watch
And See You Cry
Let Me Brush Those Tears
Because I Don't Like To See
Someone Hurting Inside
Sitting All By Themselves

 

I Don't Want To Leave You Alone
But Let Me Sit By Your Side
Let Me Be Near You
I Don't Know What Made You Cry
I Don't Know Why You're Sad
I Don't Know What's Going Through Your Mind
But I Want You To Know
That I Love You

 

I Don't Care What The Others Might Say
They Might Say I'm Just Some Random Creepy Guy
Others Might Say I'm Stalking You
Some Might Say I'm Just Looking At Your Appearance

 

But Everyone Needs A Little Love
Everyone Needs To Feel Cared For
Everyone Needs A Tight Caring Hug
And Everyone Needs A Shoulder To Cry On

 

Maybe You're Alone
In The Corner Of An Empty House
Or Maybe You're The One
No One Notices In The Crowd
Maybe You're The One With Parents
Who Abuse, Hurt And Don't Really Care About You
Maybe You're The One
Who Keeps All Their Emotions Inside
No One Suspects Any Sense Of Sadness Or Anger

 

But Let Me Tell You One Thing
I'm One Of Those Emotional Man
Who No One Suspects
Who Lacks Major Affection In His Life
No One Suspects That Joyful Silly Joke
That He Desperately Needs A Hug
Desperately Wants To Feel Loved

 

The One Emotional Man
Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Trying To Find Someone
Who's Just As Broken As He Is
Someone Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Someone Who Has Lacked Love In Their Life
I Don't Care What Has Happened In Your Life
I Don't Care Who Has Hurt Or Injured You

 

I Just Want To Be The One
Who Removes Your Troubles
I Just Want To Be The One
Who Heals Your Heart
The One Who Softens All Of The Pain

 

When You Feel Like Letting Go
I Want You To Feel That
Someone Is Holding Onto Your Hand
Someone Who Is Willing To Die For You
Someone Who Is Willing To Stick By Your Side
Someone Who Has Felt The Same Exact Pain

 

Perhaps Not The Exact Experience
But The Hollowness In Your Heart
The Empty Desertedness
You Feel All The Time

 

I Want To Be The One
Who Stops You From Giving Up
The One Who Keeps Your Engine Running
Never Letting You Give Up
Never Letting Go Of Your Hand
But The One Who Stick With You
Through All Of The Ups And Down
The Happiness And Cheerful
The Sorrow And The Sadness

 

I Will Be The One
Who Will Hold Your Hand
Until The End Of Time
Until Everyone Gives Up On You
I May Be A Broken Man
I May Be Someone
Who Is Breaking Down

 

But If There's Someone
Who's Crying Out Inside
Just As I Am Right Now
I Will Give It My All
To Keep You Happy
I Will Give It My All
To Make You Smile
For The Sake Of My Happiness
I Don't Want You To Worry

 

I Would Rather See You
Smile Through Those Tears
Crying Your Heart
From The Inside To Outside
To Understand You Have Someone
Who Really Cares About You
And I Will Hold Onto That Promise
I Won't Let Go
I Won't Give In
I Will Give It My All
All For You My Dear

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

It Was Past 1 AM And I Was Crying Prior To Writing This