WHAT IT FEELS LIKE WHEN I HAVE A SEIZURE.
A SEIZURE IS A PAIN THAT CAN'T BE DECRIBED A PAIN THAT HAD NEVER FELT IN MY WHOLE LIFE. SOMETIMES I JERK SO BAD I JUST ASK GOD TO LET ME JUST DIE BECAUSE I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN THE WHOLE TIME. AND IT FEELS LIKE I'M GASPPING FOR EVERY BREATH WITHIN ME. BUT THEN I FLOAT ABOVE ME AND SEE MYSELF IN THIS PAIN AND AGONY TELL AND I MYSELF TO BE STRONG AND TO HANG ON IT WON'T LAST TOO LONG AND THAT I HAVE COME SO FAR IN LONG I MUST TO BE STRONG AND GO ON BECAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY PEOPLE COUNTING ON ME THAT TRUTLY LOVE ME SO, FOR ME NOT TO WANT TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE I FEEL IT WOULDN'T BE RIGHT. BUT THEN AFTER THE SEIZURE IS OVER I'M SO SORE I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T GO ON BUT I TELL MYSELF I HAVE TO KEEP PRESSING ON AND TRY TO LIVE MY LIFE AS NORMAL AS POSSIBLE. AND I KNOW WITH MY UNFAILING HOPE AND FAITH THAT GOD WILL MAGICALLY TAKE MY SEIZURES AWAY I'LL BE SEIZURE FREE THAT ONE SWEET DAY!!
(الأمّهَاتْ)
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ألا فَلْيَفِدْ حَرْفيَ اليَعْرُبيّ إلَى خَيْمَةٍ
غَيْمَةٍ
غَيْرَ مَا أَلْهُو بِهِ الآنَ
فَلْيَحْتَفِلْ مَرّةً حُلْوَةً بالحُرُوْفِ الّتِي لا تَزُوْلُ
ويُوغِلَ، يُوغِلَ في نَزْفِهَا
حَدَّ أنْ يَصْطَفِي هَمْسَ رُوْحِ الصِّغَارِ
وَيَبْكِي إذَا مَا بَكَتْ حُرَّةٌ أرْسَلَتْ طَلْقَهَا
صَوْبَ حُلْمٍ سَوِيٍّ
ألا إنَّمَا تُوْلَدُ الأَرْضُ في الأُمَّهَات
يَشْتَبّ فِيْهَا النًَّدَى إذْ تَقُوْمُ السَّوَاعِدُ
يَسْتَلْهِمُ القَاعِدُوْنَ الحَرِيْقَ
قَرِيْبَاً إلَى رُوْحِ مَنْ وَدَّعُوْهُ
قَرِيْبَاً، قَرِيْبَاً إلى صَدْرِِ مَنْ أَعْلَنَ الآنَ
حِيْنَ الّذِي يَسْتَبِيْحُ الخُرُوْجَ
إلَى مَا يَكُوْن
ويُرْسِلُ حُلْمَ الّذِي رَاحَ نَحْوَاً نَقِيّاً
وَيَصْطَفّ في القَافِلَةْ
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(الولايات المتحدة، 1993)
You must believe,
to see
to percieve
things in a different way,
I must say,
to be gay,
understand today,
in an optomistic way
if you understand these commands,
relay in our land,
with a positive display
I must say
All is a great filay
when we are happy
in every way.
So you've fallen, once again and you're worn,
Knees scraped bloody, heart twisted and torn,
You feel that you've been beat, feel you can't go on,
Well the war's far from over, you know you can go on,
Pick yourself up, son, there's weather to be weathered,
Your life is waiting for you, now get yourself together,
No more dwelling, with bad thoughts just swelling,
If that's all you got, they won't want what you're selling,
You know you're stronger than you tell yourself you are,
But you don't know that believing will get you far,
Put your hand to your chest, feel your heart pound,
Now go warrior, for you are Elysium bound.
There's a place that I saved just for you,
deep inside of my heart.
No matter what life may bring us,
we'll never be apart.
Whenever I feel down and out,
and unsure of what to do,
I just close my eyes and think of things,
that I loved to do with you.
Situations arise when I feel intimidated,
Yet I find the courage to go on.
You made me a much stronger person,
But I'm weaker when you're gone.
There's a place that I saved just for you,
Deep inside of my heart.
No matter what life has in store for me,
You'll always be an important part.
He was walkin home one day,
knew he had to cross the tracks this way
even though there are bullies here,
ones that seemed to have no fear.
So when one approached him,
and threatened to punch him in the eye,
all that he asked...was why?
And then he walked away.
He'd had enough that day.
Even though he knew
what he could have been through.
He just walked away.
When that time came again,
he was more grown.
His mom and dad were in a fight,
and it seemed to last all night...
So he just walked away.
He'd had enough that night,
and even though he really knew
what they were goin through.
He hated to see them fight.
So he just walked away.
Then he remembered a long time ago,
a man he knows today
who was beaten right to the ground,
but within God he found
the strength to get back up off the ground...
And he could have walked away,
but he had a debt to pay.
Even though he knew,
what he would go through...
for you and me too...
He didn't walk away...
Yeah he stayed that day...
Jesus didn't walk away...
Remember that day, that horrible day?
The day many innocent lives were lost,
The day our personal security was destroyed,
The day a lot of tears were shed.
Tears of Happiness as loved ones found each other alive,
When each was together again,
Tears of grief, for those who were lost,
Tears of anguish, help was called, and
Tears for friends and co-workers, and those in danger.
More tears than you can imagine,
Enough tears to fill a sea,
The day our nation pulled together, to join in Unity.
As King Arthur and his Knights once said,
"United we Stand"
These words we must remember, for all eternity.
We should also remember, the name of our Nation,
United States.
Which means, in times of need,
We should call each other brother and sister,
It should not matter what race, religion, or color of skin.
Let U.S. be the United States.
Come and find me here in the darkness
help me find my way home
I have lived in the shadows of my own mind
I don't want to be alone
I've been hiding for so long
in a world build upon lies
I have crumbled up in a corner
I have been my own sacrifice
I want to fight my demons
and break out of this shell
I want to see the sun rise
and to escape this hell
Please take my hand
and pull me out of here
I don't want to hide anymore
I want to face my greatest fear
I can't do this on my own
I need you by my side
don't leave me crying here
in this deep dark night
Guide me towards the light
if you would just show me the way
I know I'll live and have the strength
to see the break of a new day
When you sing to me
it's like the sweetest lullaby
Your beauty is far beyond
the stars up in the sky
When I hear your words
so softly spoken
you mend all in me
that used to be broken
My eyes run out of
heavy lonely tears
as soon as your poetic music
flows into my ears
Through your lyrics you tell me
that I am no longer alone
because of you I have learned
to be strong on my own
In my darkest hours
you are my only light
you are the one I fall back on
whenever I have lost a fight
With you by my side
I can face it all
you are my backbone
when I have to stand tall
Your angelic voice
will always be
the sound of the sweetest
lullaby to me.