Prisoner of my pain
I wish my seizures
Would go away
And stay away
And never come
Back for rest of my days!
Instead causing me so
Much pain I wish I
Could run far far away!
Just to escape my pain but
I’m prisoner of my own
Pain! My heart races
So fast my chest feels
It’s going to explode
From the pain when I
Feel a seizure coming
These days!
June 14th 2005
Is it worth
Is it worth the fight?
I’m beginning
To think not anymore.
Every time my
Right leg starts
These day
Or my leg starts
Jumping in
Anyway I’m
Thinking okay
Am I or aren’t I
Going to have
A seizure today?
Please god I know
It’s selfish of me
To pray for myself
But PLEASE god
Make these jumping
Pains in leg go away for
Forever and a day!
In Your name I pray
Amen!
Because I don’t think
My body can with stand
No more seizures
I’m still very sore
From those I had
The other day.
It feels like
Somebody shot me
With a bunch of
Cannon balls in
Some ways!
June 13th 2005
Rage
Rage against the
Light don’t never
Give up the fight
Rage fight!
Say to yourself
My life is worth
The fight! God
Will forever take
Care of me.
So just when you think your
Body can’t handle anymore
And don’t have the strength
To go on anymore. Take a
Deep breath and say a little
Prayer god help me get through
This day! And he’ll help you
Through any bumps that may come
Your way it just takes a
Little faith!
June 11th 2005
My hell
My hell
Come and goes
Is it going to bother
Me today? I don’t
Really ever know
I just go with the
Flow. When
My hell
Comes I dread
It every time
At times my
Body gets
So tired and sore
I want to die
But I know i must get up
and go on I can’t let
My hell beat me! They may
Try to bring down even
Kill me but they’ll
Never get to me,
Because my heart will
Always beat strong
And my spirit will always
Be free within me.
So let my hell come as many times
As it wants it’ll never take
My life only god chooses when
I shall die!
June 9th 2005
As i walk
through my hallway of life
i notice doors
open to possibilities
of what my life can becoome
college
money
marriage
such good things to aspire to
but there are others
drugs
pregnancy
death
things that can happen if i let them engulf me
it is my choice
to close these doors
safe myself
my friends
my family
i made my choice and closed these doors
now its your turn to do the same
I’m a true warrior
I’m a true warrior
So it doesn’t matter
What nobody
Says about me
The people
That take it
Upon themselves
To critique me
And judge my
Poetry
When they
Even know
Anything about me.
Or what I go through
Everyday! My
Poetry is therapy
For me I just write
For fun anyway.
And a lot can relate
To what I say
In poetry in
Many ways!
These tears I cry from my wrists are cold
My story a thousand times has been told
Of a young woman bleeding
Her hope is receeding
And her life is getting old
So if this is you, then I'm sorry
And I hope you can make it through
I believe in you
'Cause I'm still livin'
Don't you dare give up hope.
I'm short of breathe
The pain sinks in
The cramping starts
And I wanna give in
But this is my best moment
I can't give in
I continue on
I said I'd do it
And I wont be wrong
I have the heart to finish
Another mile
I'm half way there
I wouldn't quit now
I wouldn't dare
I said I'd do it and I will
I continue on
And I pull through
I finish what I start
I always do
Can you say the same about you?
Wandering minds in grips abstract
Reality can even drive them back
Lifted up in daydreams
Ignorance eludes life’s happiness
Oblivious of the present tense
Dreaming of confidence,
Consciousness, togetherness
Traits so real that you possess
Focus on the brighter day
Else your life you waste away
Allowing yourself to delay
This wounded soul any…. Longer
Release this pain I pray
So you don’t go astray
Would be your only gripe
To continue with this vice
Of truly feeling the scrapes
That life puts in your face