I sit upon my throne at night
and stare into the dark
Two other chairs are sitting there
And stare into my heart
The candle flickers in the room
Only it's light shines
I sit and wait there for the Queen
and Joker here tonight
The time has come, 3-3-3
And I stare straight ahead
Two other forms are in the room
The fear goes to my head
I ask my questions, they, their answers
Stare into the room
I dare not look directly at them
I dare not risk my doom
For tonight, in my study
Dark council quietly sits
Three kings,differed kingdoms
I strain to keep my wits
My questions have been answered
Blown candle enters gloom
Turn the lights on brightly
Alone inside my room
Rest now honored soldier
Put your burdens down
The end of watch has come
Trade your sorrows for a crown
Take all these earthly worries
Bury in the ground
Finally relieved
No more honor bound
Rest now honored soldier
The battle there is won
Your oath now here is finished
Your trials now are done
We grieve for you o' soldier
But in service we're content
The innocent protected
The evil finally rent
Rest now honored soldier
And though is lost your name
Raise high your head
Do not bow in shame
You have received greatest honor
In Valhalla you have claim
Rest now honored soldier
Content in your acclaim
Blindness
Darkness
Deprived of my sight
Sitting in the void
Nothing but myself to fill it
Dark thoughts enter my head
They cover my eyes
Yet I can't see it
In the Blackness
Alone
No matter where I turn
There is nothing to see
And then a luminous explosion
A light pierces the darkness
A star from afar
Blinding me again
Blinded by whiteness
Covered in rays of light
And still I cannot see
But now there are voices
Around me they are fighting
Some for the darkness
Others for the light
I hear them killing
I hear them destroying each other
And doing atrocities in the name
Of the Darkness or the light
But all I can think of
and the more that I ponder
I've come to realize
Is that neither lets me see
and both blind me equally
Just
Like
Clockwork
Tick-ing
Mov-ing
Unlike
My
Words
Try-ing
Prov-ing
That
I
Am Not
Just-a
ma-chine
I
Keep
My Heart
Bur-ied
Ben-eath
Parts
Still
Broken
Set-on
My-teeth
I
Cant
Give in
I-won't
Be-lieve
That
A
Second
Chance-I'll
A-chieve
Clock
Work
Human
Now-just
Ma-chine
Too late to feign innocence
You've heard it all before
I can't take one more chance
I won't hurt you anymore
Consider this my letter
That I write to myself
That I couldn't get better
And I won't take you as well
Stab me
Break me
Beat me
And chain me
Leave me on the floor
Gasoline on my body
Light it outside the door
Take the man I was
And burn him to the core
Lets start a war
You deserve much better
Than I, for now, could be
Personality suicide
I can live for more than Me
For if even I can do it
Then everybody can
A personal revolution
Its time to take a stand
Stab me
Break me
Beat me
And chain me
Leave me on the floor
Gasoline on my body
Light it outside the door
Take the man I was
And burn him to the core
Lets start a war
I sleep
I dream
Or somewhere in between
For within waking nightmares
Nothing's ever as it seems
I wake
I stare
Or am I truly there?
Reality's an illusion
And it never will play fair
Am I sleeping
Do I wake
In which world is which?
Should I end my life in one
I cannot choose to switch
So do I sleep?
Do I dream?
And visit somewhere in between
But within my waking nightmares
True reality unseen
Today I sit upon my chair
and watch the world unfold beneath
The stories that I see in there
I to you, for now, bequeath
I see age in specks of dust
A lifetime carved in wood
Time's corrosive touch in rust
Just like a lover could
My eyes open to the Sky!
And there I see the stars
But look down, and time flys by
With speeding headlights of cars
Look to the rain, wisdoms countless
The same water fell on Rome
I speculate, with reasons doubtless
Civilizations last shorter than stones
You may think I ramble insanely
That my mind has truly blown
But these thoughts forever chase me
And will leave me utterly alone.
Right here
Right now
With this ocean between us
Where tragedy confronts eternity
I can finally see your light
From the darkness of my own heart
A grave machination of despair
The soul taken
My corpse remains
You walked through my fires unscathed
You've passed through death's dark gates
And yet still live
Excelsior
Still, I look for you
Relentless, I'm lost without you
The ghosts of my past haunt me still
Continuously burning me alive
A whispered silence inflaming my throat
Exhausted with no lungs to breathe
No air with which to speak
But a hush and a sigh, then I'll be gone
Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?
As my vision bleeds to red
Your freedom burns my heart
It puts fire in my bones
Until I'm left with ashes of what once were
And shadows of what could be
I don't need to be reminded
that its all meaningless
I feel the slow hours tick by
from my already too short life
Another breath
Another bottle
Another wasted day gone
Fill my lungs with cancer
And why?
I don't die faster
Fill my gut with liquor
The pain doesn't leave
Why try when there is no end
I refuse to race without finish
"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher"
Listless at my own apathy
I don't care to care
I can't
Because it doesn't matter
Why live for life's sake?
Why die to end it?
All is without purpose
"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher."