relationships

Beautiful Lie

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2017

I’m a liar.

Every day you get more

tangled in my web of lies.

 

With every waking breath

The lies spill from my lips

Until there’s nothing left.

 

My lies draw you in

And bleed you dry

Leaving you lying on the ground.

 

I could paint you a picture

with my beautiful lies.

They would cover a canvas with deceit.

 

I’ll tell you what you want to hear

Just to see your smile.

I might be a liar but you are my truth.

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Written 6/10/17

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2017

I can’t promise you forever.

I can only give you right now.

Forever is overrated anyways.

 

I hope you won’t have to look for me.

If you do

I hope I’ll be in the sofa

surrounded by all the change

that has fallen out of your pockets.

 

We’ll go to McDonald’s,

and order off the dollar menu

since all we have is the change

found in the sofa.

 

If I get lost

I hope I’m with you.

Everything is better

when I’m with you

except maybe my ability to focus.

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Written 5/21/17

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Close

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2017

You’re too far away from me.

I always want to be closer.

 

Let me freeze time

So I can spend an eternity with you.

 

I want to watch sunsets with you

And sunrises too.

 

You’re too far away

Just out of my reach.

 

I’m always trying to hold you,

But you slip through my fingers.

 

Come close

And never turn back.

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Written 6/21/17

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Power

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Personal World

I have more power than you do, I realise this now

You used to make me feel like a useless waste, I realise that now.

You used to display power, I didn't, yet I'm more powerful.

I made things happen I didn't know I could. 

I walked away, knowing I should. 

Even through the smoky haze, I knew....

I have more power than you!

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Self-realiation after many years away from my ex.

Let me

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2017

Let me promise you forever,

Even though I don’t deserve right now.

 

Let me wipe away the tears,

Even if you’re crying because of me.

 

Let me give you beautiful sunsets,

Even if they’re always fading.

 

Let me write you endless poems,

Even if the words run out.

 

Let me call you mine,

Until you don’t want me anymore.

 

Let this be the best thing,

Until it turns into just a memory.

 

Let me love you,

Even if this ends in heartbreak.

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Written 6/17/17

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Like

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2017

She looks at me like

I could be the one to save her.

 

She says my name like

It’s the best name in history.

 

She holds me like

She never wants to let me go.

 

She makes me feel like

No one else matters.

 

She treats my like

She doesn’t need anything else.

 

She kisses me like

My lips could heal all of her pain.

 

She loves me like

I am the best things that’s ever happened to her.

Maybe I am.

I want to be.

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Written 6/17/17

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Control/ With You (again)

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2017

I like to be in control.

I like to know what is going to happen.

And I sometimes wish that I could predict the future,

Just so I can make all the right decisions.

 

But when I spend time with you

I don’t need to know what the future will be.

I like the mystery of the unknown.

Because every decision with you is the right one

As long as I don’t hurt you

 

It’s huge that I let you be in control,

I want you to take charge.

Because every now and then it’s nice

To have someone else make the decisions.

 

I’m glad that you aren’t afraid

To take control.

It means a lot to me

Thank you.

 

I am falling for you.

I might have already landed.

I am kind of in love

With you.

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Written 5/31/17

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With You

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2017

I like to think

That I have self-control,

And when it comes to some things

I do.

 

But when it comes to you

I’m hopeless.

Any willpower I thought I had

Is gone.

 

Life is too short,

And I don’t want to waste my time.

So why would I spend my time

Not doing the things that I want to?

 

I want every minute to count.

And I don’t want to waste a second

By spending my time doing things

I don’t want to be doing.

 

If I could

I would freeze time

Just so that I could spend

One more moment

With you.

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Written 5/31/17

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Not Yet

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2017

 

Those three small words are on the tip of my tongue.

I love you.

I want to say them, but I know I shouldn’t.

I want you to know, but I know it will hurt.

I hope the hurt will be worth it.

 

The pain will sneak up on you

and by the time you realize what happened

it will be too late.

 

I don’t want you to waste your tears on me,

you’ve used too many already.

You say I make you happy,

which will only worsen the heart break.

 

Is it true?

That it is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all?

You’ll have to tell me,

when you are hurting because of me,

no longer wanting me to wipe away the tears

you’re crying because of me.

 

I want to tell you all that I’m feeling,

But not yet.

I want to spill all my secrets,

But not yet.

 

I want to promise you everything.

I want to promise you happiness.

I want to promise you forever.

But I can’t,

not without lying to you

hurting you

making empty promises that will eventually mean nothing.

I wish I could fill them

make them count

give you everything that you deserve.

But I can’t.

 

I’m sorry

 

There are so many things I don’t want to do:

Hurt you

Make you cry

Break your heart

But most of all

I don’t want to lose you.

 

I’m scared

 

I can’t lose you

Not yet.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written 5/12/17

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