Mental Health

the new world

The new world

By Jfarrell

 

It used to be..

The

Drip….

Drip….

Drip….

Of the tap,

Make you mad enough

Wanna kill someone;

 

WTF????

Where’s my reply????

Cmon, stupid bloody phone

Useless bloody internet….

Arrrrrrggggghhhh…

I asked her to marry me….

 

OH…………….. SHI………. sorry

 

I didn’t mean to hit you,

Bugger, sorry, was on the phone…

Please…

Please wake up,

I can’t of hit you, that hard,

Please wake up.

Please….

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

dunno what went wrong, but scares the crap outta me

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wordsmith

Wordsmith

By Jfarrell

 

A David Tennant episode of Dr Who called Shakespeare a “wordsmith”

 

 

 

Malleable..

I can see

A hot, sweaty man

(please forgive my sexism)

Thrusting his iron into the forge,

Withdrawing

And placing it against the anvil

And hitting it

With a bloody big hammer

To bend it into the shape,

The angle,

So perfect

The horse,

Shooed,

With this

Malleable

Hoof

Will run leagues, continents

Without tiring

Without

Discomfort

 

And, I just so wish I could I could bring my dragon here, my dragon would love this,

…..

 

Oh… oh… oh…

 

 

Maybe…

 

Malleable

 

What a fantastic name for a dragon!

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

my dragon has a smell and a name :)

i can tell tales of woe

I can tell tales of woe

By Jfarrell

 

I can tell tales of woe

Make you cry

Make you hurt

Make you wish

Things I won’t mention.

 

I can tell tales of destruction

I lit the match

Didn’t mean to, but,

Ashes, ruins, the stench of wet smoke,

How many of us are HERE? Right now?

 

But, I so wish..

 

Tales of hope I can do,

I know I need hope;

Tales of encouragement I can do,

I definitely need that.

 

You,

All of YOU!

Will have to help me with

Tales of love,

I haven’t enough to remember

To recall,

To visualise,

To connect with the feelings…

An experience,

I must have had

Long ago

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

if you like my stuff enough to read, thank you

don't know waht else to say

alone

Alone

By JFarrell

 

I don’t know what the number is,

There are six billion people on this planet

( or is that just this country? )

That’s a lot of people

 

And, yet

So many of us

Feel

So alone

 

And

I am one of them

Why?

 

 

I have neighbours

Left, right, underneath me

I have faces I see, everyday

Exchange words with

I see faces I might like to talk to

 

But

They don’t talk to me first

And

I won’t risk

Talking to them first

 

So many of us are alone

And

It doesn’t have to be this way.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

YOU are not alone, even if you feel you are

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you.... yes, you

You…. yes YOU

By Jfarrell

 

You, yes, you,

Dear reader…..

How do you feel

Right now?

 

Back,

From a long day at work?

Wiping the sleep from your eyes

As you awake?

Cursing at the bus

That didn’t stop?

Cursing at the rain

Because it won’t stop?

Hurriedly cooking tea

Because you missed dinner?

Worrying over an ill friend

Worrying at your own misfortunes?

 

I could write about me.

 

But

 

I’m thinking of you

Because you DESERVE

Thinking about.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

how do you feel? and why?

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gulf

Gulf

By JFarrell

 

Between my mind and my heart

There is an immeasurable gulf.

 

I know I was only six

But I feel,

I took the sweets;

I know the adult was to blame

But I feel,

It’s all my fault.

 

I know the sun will rise tomorrow

But I feel

It’s never been darker;

I know tomorrow will be much like today

But I feel

It may never come (sometimes, I don’t want it to)

 

I know this is the world we live in

But I feel

It’s too unreal, too mad;

I know this world around me is very beautiful

But I feel

All is ugliness, all is pain.

 

I wish I was a builder

I’d love to build a bridge through that gulf

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

what's your gulf?

because....

Because..

by JFarrell

 

Because

It may be my only redemption

I wish all joy to the World

Because

I fear to be alone forever

I wish happiness to everyone

Every man, woman and child

Because

I fear and feel pain

I wish LOVE

For YOU!

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

i wish you love, dear reader

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i long to...

I long to….

 By JFarrell

 

I long to

SCREAM

Let it out, let it all out;

Pain, anger,

Just plain old

Frustration

I so want to

Let it out.

 

I long to

fall in love

To love another totally, absolutely

and be loved back

To be held

Close

Tenderly.

 

I long to

Be a better person

Not this stupid, waste of space;

Maybe

If I were a better person

I wouldn’t have to

Long to….

 

And

I am

So

Trying

 

 

(may you all have beautiful rainbows in your life)

 

(and beautiful dragons too)

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

what do you long to.....?

ashtray

Ashtray

By Jfarrell

 

As I put out my cigarette,

And glimpse the ashtray,

I can’t help but think

What a metaphor for my life

This is.

 

The dog-ends of past decisions,

Regrets,

Broken promises;

Drowning in the powdered ash

Long since burned.

 

The bottom of the ashtray,

Is stained ashen black;

Like Dorian Gray’s picture,

Inside me, is there a place,

That holds the scars of my mistakes,

Like dirty, filthy stains?

 

I can wash my ashtray;

Can I wash

What’s inside me?

 

I got cleaner,

I got scrubbing brush,

And

I gonna give it a bloody good try.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

yep, i am that dirty

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