Relational Maturity

Time flies

As clouds fill the skies

So far from you

And yet standing beside each other

Can we weather the wind and the waves?


Whisper me words

I've never heard before

Underneath dark storm clouds

As waves drift us further away


Reach out your hand

Take yours in mine

Together we'll weather the storms

That strike out at sea


And as our troubles cease

We'll stop drifting about

And look to see the stars in the clouds

At least we'll imagine them

Before Poseidon's waves drag us below


But I hope there's one thing that you know;

Hold on to me close

As we sink into a melancholic sea;


I've got your hand, and will never let go


Light and Dark


A double life

For we say one thing

And yet do another

Hypocrites all

And yet blind to our modus operandi

Like Icarus we soar and fail

Like Daedalus we're trapped

In our own labyrinths

Prisoners inside our heads

While our souls quietly scream

Neither fully good

Or fully evil

But capable of both

Within a single minute

We bless one moment

What we curse the next

We give to others

And we take back again

Angels and demons

Look down on us

For being lukewarm

Toward everything in our lives

But we have two things that they don't

One thing inherent to our nature:


And one inherent to our anatomy:


And both angels and demons alike


Would give anything for either gift


Light and Dark

You thought you'd killed me

Thought that I was done

When you left me bleeding

Bleeding on the ground

It's true I'm dying

But I believe

That death comes only

To those in need


Fire only brings me life

As it eats my cold, dead flesh

So now starts my afterlife

Bone and sinew start to mesh


You can never keep me down

You can only kill me now

But just as sunbeams fill the skies

I will be your own demise



They once said

And so I'll burn you

When you're dead



I am the fear that hides within

The good things that have never been

I am the smoke behind your eyes

Caused you to believe your lies

I am the crushing in your heart

When life just tears it all apart

I am the tremble in your voice

The anger at never having choice

I am the tempter in your limbs

The light inside you slowly dims

I am the whisper in the night

Reminding you not all is right



No need to look underneath your bed


For I am the monster inside your head


So many voices in my head

Telling me who to be

Saying, Don't do that

Don't be this

Don't enjoy that

But I can go away

Hideaway in my sanctuary

And wait for the noise to calm down



Water flowing from my wrists

But I'll sit on the mossy bank

Of the river I've made

Listening to the peace of it all

Soak in the silence

And everything is all right

All is well

You'll find me

On the red stained shore

Of your self-made calamity


But I'll have nothing to say

No Longer Naive

Love is fleeting

It's a occupation

On which time takes it's toll

If both members do not work equally


So, where is love now

Broken man on broken feelings

Shattered dreams and fractured hope


“Ignorance is bliss.”

Because with wisdom comes understanding

With understanding comes pain


I'm barely left a ghost in this house

Gutted, soulless, but still existing

Existing, that's exactly the word

With nothing to live for

Without reasons to plan



For all our joy and happiness

I find, they tend to evanesce


Shadows give depth to our souls

Our sins shape our personality

But you've got a tell-tale heart

And it's told me all I need to know


It's told me goodbye

The River Crossing

Tales and Fables

A man once said:

“It's a dangerous business,

going out your front door.”

And he was right

For deep is the river

and narrow the crossing

A river called melancholy

And a bridge called hope

A straight and narrow road

With no rails to catch you

Nothing to keep you from falling

Unless you trust in your footing

Unless you see where you're going

Unless you believe that you'll make it


And you will never fall


Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sentence in parenthesis from J.R.R. Tolkien's, The Fellowship of the Ring.


I finally close my eyes

Nostalgia for yesterday

Tears roll down my cheeks

Never again hold your hand

Never again to touch your face


Angels have fallen for less

And I will fall too

With a bottle pressed against my head

So I can forget

Your name on my lips

The last thing I'll say

Before I'm carried away


Lay me down

Beneath the ground

Among a bed of wildflowers

And a red clay halo

Surrounded by the broken

As the rain gently falls


These tears that I'm crying

Will fall upon your face

Gently, oh so coldly

My very last embrace

The Silent Passage

Light and Dark

After my time has finished

And I am going home

I will wait for you

That we may be presented together

Through the silent passage

A step into Elysium

A skip past Nirvana

Through the doors of Valhalla

Pass through the havens grey

And unto the West

There you'll find me

On a white bench near a golden shore

Staring out into the world

Watching as time unravels

Unwinds before my eyes

A moment as a lifetime on earth

Limitless waves lap at my feet

And not a care to be found



Just beginning to understand

Two small words: